Let me present to you...

My Middle Finger

"Wala ka talagang ka respe-respeto kahit kailan!"

*pak*

In all fairness, masakit yung sampal, very very light lang naman kasi immune na ang pisngi ko eh.

"Lalayas na ba ako?" pagkasabi ko nun, lumapit ako sa nanay ko kung saan ako nagmana nang walang respeto. Inilapit ko yung mukha ko sa mukha niya sabay sabing "Yeheyy! Bye ma" tsaka ako umalis.

I'm sure kinuhanan na naman yun ng video ng napakaganda kong pinsan at ikakalat na masama ako. Though I don't care, masama naman na ako sa paningin ng mga tao.

By the way, kung iniisip niyo stepmom ko yun, no, she's my real mom, nakitira lang yung pinsan kong sobrang kapal ng face.

Oh wait, nakalimutan kong sabihin, nakamaleta na ako kasi, ready na'ko as always na palayasin, this is my final decision. YAASSSS!

Ay potek na yan, san ako tutuloy.

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad, san nga ba? Kasi naman eh!

*kring kring*

"Hello?"

"Sweet? Hihi paampon naman"

"OHMYGOSH LUMAYAS KANA?!"

"ANO BA! 'WAG MO KONG SINISIGAWAN!"

"S-sorry hehe, sgee, bilis na dito Arc"

"On the way na Sweet, lakad lakad lang"

"LAKAD?! GAGA KA BA?!"

"Sabi ko nga sasakay ako diba may bente naman ako dito eh, hanap pa 'ko work bukas. Sigaw ka pa veve"

Lumipas ang panahon at hindi ko inaasahan ang mga nangyayari. I decided to calm myself, I decided to be soft for people to like me, I admit it, I crave for their attention, nobody has given me that since I was a child, it was my demonyitang pinsan who experienced it.

2 years of being matino, but in those 2 years wala pa din akong narinig na maganda sa mga tao.

My cousin posted the video na naglayas ako, and she had a lot of friends while Sweet is all that I have. Kumalat ang video ko na yon which lead to people stalking my account and then sending me threats.

I was crying that time because I can't help it anymore. Kaya eto, nagbago na ako para sa mga tao, binago ko yung sarili ko dahil ginusto ko din at gusto kong ma appreciate nila ako. But what happened?

"Arc naman ang tagal mong mag-laba jan nagugutom na 'ko ano ba naman!" right, she WAS my bestfriend, Sweet, the devilish Sweet.

Ngumisi lang ako matapos kong marinig 'yon, potek nakakarindi na.

"You know what? I'm sick of these treatments. Sweet! I found a job para magkaroon ng sariling tirahan, kaso sabi mo dito nalang ako, para ano? Para gawing alalay?! And inform your so-called-true-friends na inalalay mo lang ang malditang babae noon na ginawang ayusin lahat kahit hindi na maayos-ayos?! I tried to be better para may makinig naman sa'kin! But no one ever listens to me, mabait man ako o hindi! Even you! Friend? Bestfriend? Ha! Excuse me, I might throw someone at their place."

"Lakas mo namang dumakdak, bayad mo yan sa'kin, bestfriend kita ba't nagrereklamo ka?"

"Bayad ko sayo? Bakit ano bang inutang ko? Hati naman tayo sa expenses dito ah? Kung may inutang man ako, attention mo yon pero 'di mo din naman nabigay. And bish please, that's what you call a plastic slash manggagamit friend. Please excuse me, lalayas lang ako."

Ano bang pwede kong gawin? Should I bring myself back? I mean I just realized I don't need to change me for everybody, mabubuhay naman akong wala sila. I don't know the word attention anymore.

5 years later

Everyday she tells her daughter
"Baby you're not just a pretty face"
She says she gotta work much harder
Than every single man that's just away.

This is the time when I want to prove myself to everybody, I'm not that easy to be dragged down.

But she goes to the same job everyday
She's overworked and underpaid
Just 'cause the way her body's made
Ain't that insane?

Walking in this runway, it's the dream that people almost destroyed. I can face you all without hesitations. Buti nalang 'di ako sumuko.

If you never been told how you gotta be
What you gotta wear, how you gotta speak
If you never shouted to be heard
You ain't lived in a woman's world.

If I slit my wrist that time, ikakatuwa pa ng mga taong kinasusuklaman ako. I just don't give up that easily, they don't reach my dream for me, I will.

Just look at how far we've got (that we've got )
And don't think we'll never stop
This ain't the way it's got to be
This ain't the way it's got to be.

I confidently smiled to all the cameras around me. Take a picture of me and show it to the bishes who tried to ruin me. Avyanna Arcane.

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Song by: Little Mix