It's difficult to grasp real life when your imagination is so overwhelming. When life becomes a desolate fabrication with no meaning you began to question why you're there. Or if you really are there. Do you make a difference in people's lives? How much? Would they miss you if you were gone? Would they care?
I am one of the lucky people though I hadn't realised it until now. I wouldn't say I have an amazing life but I wouldn't say I had a terrible one either. I am only young; I have a lot of people to meet and things to discover about the world and about myself. I may not have the greatest life but I have people who make it great. I have friends that claim to be best friends but are really just lonely and desperate. People love me then leave me but I wouldn't blame them. I'm a very difficult person to understand. I'm an awkward, lonely person and I'll admit; I have problems with detachment. People call me an attention seeker a lot. But it's cool because I can keep my head up over them. I don't get brought down easily by people I don't really care about. The worst problem I have is surviving neglection by the people I care for most. When I have fall outs with people I let in it depresses me. It made me build a wall inside to block people now so now I have a very small number of friends but most of them aren't very close at all.
I do have one best friend who has stood by me through thick and thin. I won't deny that we've had fall outs but somehow, someway, we always make it through the other side. We've been through a lot; both seperately and together. We both have similarities in the way we think about things and the things we like. She's wonderful and she does so so much for me. Despite all the things she goes through she always finds time for my moany ass. Right now she is the closest thing I have to family and she has no idea how amazing she really is. I love her so so much and she is the best thing in my life right now and one of the few things that help me get by.
She is Louise Scotland. Yes that really is her second name. She is amazing and loyal; the greatest friend I could ever have asked for. Louise knows me inside out and can read my like a book. She has no idea how much I think of her and how wonderful she really is. I wish she would realise that she is the best person in the world but until she does I will try to be the the best friend that I can be so I can maybe attempt to be as amazing as she is. She's fucking weird and I love her.
For Louise from Boo <3
