Peeping Tom. Jean Kirstein X Reader Book

chapter 1: when three became two

Before we start AOT SEASON 1 BATTLE FOR TROST SPOILERS!!!!

An.for some brief clarification it's the same au as standard aot.with the only diffrences being that the trainees get there own rooms and that spicy toys exist.oops teaser. Without further ado,let's do this

Word count:1669 ;)

Jean had always been a pretty reserved person for the most part.even to his close friends like me and marco,he would constantlykeep how he truly felt hidden,he for some unknown reason was pretty on the low with how he felt.i had been friends with jean since the first day of training.speaking with him and marco,we instantly became friends.

I remember sitting with him in his room the day we saw Marco's half eaten courpse.you dont forget stuff like that,not easily atleast.the sight of Marco's organs poking out from the side of his contorted body,the way blood was lightly streaming down the side of his face that was still there,would drive a normal person insane.the only reason that we weren't driven to the brink of insanity at the sight of it,was because we had seen stuff like this before.but you never expect it to happen to your friends.you see it happen around you.other peoples siblings,parents,lovers,the list goes on.you cant help but feel bad to those closest to them,but you never think it would happen to those closest to you,which is why it still hurt.

I remember getting back to our scouting quarters.when we had dinner,jean asked me to come to his room,the fear of the sudden loneliness and sadness was probably clawing at his mind.when we got to his room he lit a candle as I sat down on the edge of his bed.

"Y/n,you ok?"

He spoke quietly warning over to me,taking a seat beside me.

"Jean.....I'm really going to miss him"

I said,water building up at the side of my eyes,the image of Marcos mangled corpse appearing clearly as if I was really standing infront of him right now.

"I know y/n, I'm gonna miss him to"

he said now also teary eyed.Offering his hand out to pull me into a hug,which I accepted.crying onto eachother shoulders,holding onto one another as if the world was caving in,like there was no one left but us in this cruel world.

A memory that had long been forgotten,appeared in my head again while in Jean's arms.me Jean and marco had snuck out at night during the summer where the days were long and the nights were short.we silently left our rooms and met at a spot on a hill nearby in the forest located near the camp.the three of us sat on the hill and watched the sun go down cuddling one another,and when it had fully set.we sat and looked at the night sky,it was full of deep purples and rich blues.

marco happen to memorize several constellations and taught us on them.his favourite constellation was the ursa major.his parents aparantly had several illegal books and one on them happened to be "space" as he called it.he told us diffrent legends based on the constellation which were really interesting.his passion for space was one he kept hidden from most people,and the joy in his eyes when talking about space was one I had never seen before in him.

"Hey guys,what's your dream?"

Marco spoke turning his head to keep looking at the night sky.his face shining from the moonlight.

"I'm not quite sure marco,I mean I'd like to work in the military but I dont really know outside of that."

jean spoke honestly.

"Hey marco,what's your dream?"

jean asked now turning his head to face marco.

"I know it's probably impossible but idd love to go to space someday.id like to see first hand what its like up there.the stars,the moon,just everything I guess."