Anything For You (Satzu/Mitzu)

Nineteen

Tzuyu's POV

I'm standing in the corner of my office where you can see the skyline as the sun sets. I sighed. It's been 3 months since the last time I saw Sana. Things are different but not how I feel about her. Every day I'm living my life like a robot just to get through the day. Every night I cry myself to sleep. How can I live like this? My mind is like you owned it. I'm so broken without you, Sana. It's hard to breathe. I need you. I'm slowly losing myself.

"Tzuyu-ah!!" I startle.

"Dahyunie, you scared me! Don't shout. What is it?" I ask and walk back to my table to fix my things.

"We're going out tonight. Come with us. We miss you." Dahyunie said and sat on my sofa.

"Going where?" Still fixing my things

"In Chaeyoung's. Momo is coming." She said and I stopped what I was doing.

"Is Sana with her? Is she in Korea too?" I asked. Hoping to see her.

"Yeah! She's here but she will not be with us tonight." She added.

"Oh," I said and continued to fix my things. "So let's go?" I asked.

"Let's!" Dahyunie said and we held hands going to the parking.

"I miss her so much. Can I see her?" I asked out of nowhere. She knows who I'm referring to.

"No Tzuyu-ah. You don't need to hurt yourself again and again." She glared at me. I just nod and open the door for her.

"Chaeyoun-ah!!!" Dahyunie shouts as we enter her house. She's always shouting, I know.

"Over here!" She said coming from the garden. And we follow.

"We saw you at last!" Jeong unnie said and hugged me. "We missed you so much".

"Tzuyu-ah, hug me too. I missed you more." Nayeon unnie said and clung to me. I just smiled.

"Me three Tzuyu-ah!" Jihyo unnie said and I obeyed them.

"Unnie's it's just one Saturday I missed," I said and scratched my forehead. They're treating me like a baby.

"Still we missed you! Kiss me!" Nayeon said and pouted her lips. Arghh! I hate it but I still did kiss her.

"What about me?! I want kisses too!" Jihyo said. I sighed rolled my eyes and kissed everyone. My unnies are needy sometimes.

"I'm sorry I'm late." We looked at the door and we saw Momo unnie waving at us. She runs towards Dahyunie and hugs her tight. "I miss you so much my Tofu!" And they kiss. We all smile at the sight. "I miss you all gays!" She adds and hugs us all.

"Foods are all ready. Let's eat." Chaeng said and we sat at the table.

While we're eating as much as I wanted to ask Momo unnie about Sana, I'm trying so hard not to. But I don't know how long I can keep it. Momo unnie is telling us now how their month went. They'd been away for a month because of their work. I really wanna see her tonight.

"Can-can I se-see her, Momo unnie?" I finally asked. All of them stopped what they were doing and looked at me in disbelief.

"My God Tzuyu!" Jeong unnie said and massaged her forehead.

"You're not going anywhere, Tzuyu." Jihyo unnie said angrily.

"Unnies, just tonight." I'm seriously feeling hopeless.

"I don't think that's a good idea, Tzuyu," Dahyunie said.

"I promise this will be the last time. Please?" I'm persistent. Nayeon unnie sighed and dropped her spoon and fork.

"Okay." Neyeon unnie said and exhaled deeply. "But we are coming." She adds. I smiled. Everyone glances at Nayeon unnie looks disappointed

"I can't believe this!" Jeong unnie said and shook her head.

"She's home. Are we going now?" Momo unnie said.

"Okay. Let's finish this!" Jihyo said irritated. And everyone follows. I felt anxious. I don't know why I'm doing this to myself.

"So what's the plan?" Momo unnie asks as we settle in our seats. We use the van twice for us to fit all in 1 car. Jeong unnie is driving.

"I don't want to go inside. I'll be quick. Just tell her to meet me outside. If it's okay with her." I said. She nods. The travel is so quiet. People think I'm pathetic I know. But I don't care. As long as it's for her. I can lower my pride and ego just to talk to her. I'm such a mess.

"We're here," Jeong said. We all didn't notice the travel. I opened the door and got out of the car and Momo unnie followed. It is so nervous. Fuck!

"I will just wait here unnie," I said and stood next to the gate and she just nodded and went in. I'm fidgeting. I sighed. It took like 5mins before they came out. I am so tense as I can hear their footsteps. I look down. I'm like gonna pass out. I'm catching my breath.

"What is this again, Tzuyu?" Sana said. I raised my head to see her. She's crossing her arms and looks annoyed.

"I am sorry. I just wanna see you." I said I reached for her hand but she shove it away.

"Aren't you tired of this, Tzuyu?" She's pissed off. "How many times do you want me to say that I don't love you anymore? That I don't want to see you! You're just hurting yourself!" She adds. And a tear falls again. Damn it!

"I know. I know all of that already." I said and looked away to wipe my tears free flowing. Shit! I sighed. "I just have one favor to ask," I tell her. She looks baffled.

"What?" She asked.

"I-I just want you to li-lie to me."

"Lie about what?" She's really confused. I wiped my tears and compose myself.

"Just tell me you love me."

"You gotta be kidding me, Tzuyu! This is not funny!" She's furious. I shake my head.

"Just lie to me. Please?" I'm such a shame. I know. She breathes heavily and looks away. Then she looks at me. I can't read her.

"I love you." She said. I smiled.

"I love you too." I stare for her at the moment. God! I love her. "Will you miss me when I'm gone?" I asked and my eyes got teary again. She sighed. I can say she's having a hard time doing this.

"Ye-yes. I-I will miss you." She stuttered. My tears betrayed me again. I wipe my tears and smile at her.

"Me too."  I sighed And I turned my back on her. I can't take it anymore. I walk towards the car. I can barely see because of the tears flowing. I will not look back anymore. I guess this is it. I'm setting her free. Dahyunie opens the door for me and I throw myself to her. I cried like a river.