You're making things worse for me.. Why? (Harry styles) #wattys2015

part 4

-ALEXA-

the weekend was quickly over and now it was time to head back to school i quickly ate my breakfast and headed out the door. i reached school and started walking ''slut'' ''whore'' is all i could hear people saying but i just tried to ignore them put my head down and walked to my locker.

i got my books out for english ''slut'' jordan whispered in my ear ''my names alexa'' i stated i stood up to myself for the first time ''well its still slut'' he replied laughing i sighed ''aww is she all sad now.. cant handle a joke'' lewis said coming behind jordan

i walked faster down the coridoor when suddenly i bumped into someone i looked up and it was harry ''hey be careful ok?!'' harry said to me smiling i didnt repond just carried on walking

''hey wait'' he shouted i felt somoene grab my wrist and turn me around ''dont fucking touch me what do you want?'' i yelled in frustration ''what happened?'' harry said looking at me as a tear rolled down my face ''nothing'' i bluntly replied looking back at lewis and jordan laughing

''something did.. you wouldnt be crying right now if nothing had happened'' he said looking into mt eyes ''why would you even care?'' i asked him before walking away and making my way to the classroom where katy was standing outside ''im so happy to see you.. are you ok?'' she asked me ''yeah i'll be fine'' i replied smiling ''you havent..'' she said pointing at her arm ''no'' i replied

english was over and i wasnt in a good mood. im not a slut. i havent slept with anyone in my life.

i wasnt really feeling good today.. i mean i wasnt ill i was just in a bad mood and i wanted to go home to i went to reception and signed myself out of school i told katy i was going and she understood.

as i walked out past the parking lot i heard a faint voice behind me i couldnt bare to look ''alexa'' he shouted i didnt stop just carried on walking he finally catched up with me ''where are you going?'' he asked me ''home not like it anything to do with you'' i replied still walking not stopping to talk

''alexa please wait'' harry said i stopped in my footsteps and turned around ''WHAT STYLES? WHAT IS IT THAT YOU COULD POSSIBLY WANT?'' i asked him shouting he walked closer to me lifted my chin up and kissed me.

his lips felt so soft and i had butterflies in my stomach.. what on earth am i doing kissing a boy that is basically bullying me? i pulled away ''what are you doing?'' i asked him confused ''kissing you'' he replied laughing ''well leave me alone'' i said walking away ''you fucking slut'' he muttered under his breath loud enough for me to hear.

how could he. i walked well actually i run home.

i opened the door and run to my room and locking it behind me. i went into my bathroom and there stood a razer so many thoughts came to me.. i cant do this. i cant cut myself again. i looked at the raer blade for ages

i picked it up looking at it closely holding it in my fingers and holding it against my arm.. before i knew it my arm was pouring out with blood ''what have i just done?'' i whispered falling to the ground crying and clentching my arm

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