The Secrets of Smosh (Maricorn)

Short Story Ella

I climbed into his car. I felt like I was on air. "Somebody likes me," I kept repeating to myself. Kevin was 15 years old, I 12. I still can't believe he picked me. I just started junior high, everyone told me it was horrible. That the entire experience was a nightmare. So far, I've enjoyed it. It's as if something told every boy I walked by, "Hey look at me, I'm in junior high and extremely available." Anyway, they were noticing. That's how I ended up here, on my first date with Kevin. It was almost 10 o'clock, and we were hauling some ass over the Fremont bridge. He had just gotten his permit and also had his arm around my shoulders, nothing felt more perfect.

He pulled up into the OMSI (pronounced "omsie") parking lot that was situated next to the river. I hated even being in this area during the day, let alone nearly midnight. Kevin slipped his arm around my waist and that fear and anxiety fell away. I smiled and leaned into him. We were walking on the eastern side of the river, facing Riverscape on the other side. Further on down the path wafting alongside the river, it grew darker. This was due to the over pass directly above it. Once we were under it, Kevin pulled me off the path and into the shadows. I was definitely scared, this is where the crazy people hang out. He gently pushed me down onto the ground and laid beside me. "Hey Ella, look at the river," he whispered into my ear. I did. The moonlight was shimmering on the water and cast a glow everywhere else on the earth. We were laying on a blanket, a homeless person's blanket. I really felt like we were invading someone private area. He leaned over and pressed his sweet lips to mine. Oh my god. This was happening. Finally. I wasn't really sure what to do, so I let him take control. I trusted him completely, he's a full 3 years older than me, he must know how this all really works. His hands ran further down my back and rested on the hem of my shirt. He started to lift it up. It wasn't really that warm that evening, so that was the only objection I had. Of course, I didn't say anything. I can't screw this up, no way. I ventured out a bit and kissed him back harder. He seemed to go for it. A euphoria rose up inside of me, driving me to pull him closer. I could tell that he felt it too. Kevin pulled me on top of him without breaking our kiss. His hands went down to his zipper, I definitely had some objections to this, but if I say anything, he'll think I'm just some little immature kid. I tried not to think about it as he slipped inside me. I squeezed my eyes shut and he moved me up and down on his chest. I just wrapped my arms around his neck and blocked it out. "Stop being such a baby, enjoy yourself," said that ominous voice. My conscience begged to differ. I listened to Ominous instead. He got more intense and moved me faster. We both kept quiet in case there was someone around.

"Wow Ella. Am I seriously your first? You're so chill," he said admirably. I felt a twinge of pride. I did it, I proved to myself and everyone else I'm not some stupid little kid. We continued along the river walk, hand in hand. I earned it.

The last week had been more or less fantastic. Every boy in school was staring me down, I heard comments like, "Damn girl." I smiled. With the girls however, I heard the opposite. "She's such a slut, she's with that high school kid." "Yeah, I heard he's like a held back senior." What utter bullshit. They're all just jealous because they don't have someone that cares for them like Kevin does for me. And he's only a freshman in high school. Fuck. It was Saturday. When I woke up, I made the routine of clearing all the texts from bitchy girls and swooning boys. Kevin told me to just ignore all of them, he's the only one that matters. Pangs rippled through my stomach. I went to dinner last night with my parents. We went out to Izzy's and I completely stuffed myself. I'm starting to regret it now. I ran to the bathroom and emptied my stomach via mouth. "Hey Ells, you okay in there?" My mother asked me through the door. "Yeah, I just ate too much last night," I answered weakly. When I was done, I texted Kevin. He was over instantly.

"Hey babe, I'm here," he texted me.

"DONT COME IN," I responded. "My parents would flip if they found out i was dating."