Fate/Murnan Ikigai

Part 1: Aftermath

Late September, 2017

It's been over 3 years since that war came to an end. As time goes on, it becomes increasingly more difficult to remember the exact details...but I can't let myself forget about everything that was lost.

A series of battles that rivaled the Holy Grail War. Comrades that lost their lives fighting for what they believed in. Innocent people that were used as collateral by the magi trying to restore Heaven's Feel. Those scars still remain, and likely always will.

It wasn't all bad, however. Reconciled relationships, deepening bonds with those we love, and even pursuing old dreams we left behind. I'd like to think that, over time, the positive memories will begin to outweigh the negative ones. Maybe one day, I'll even stop regretting what I consider to be my failures...

After Shirou came and pulled me out of the rubble, I regained consciousness just in time to get revenge against the man who took the last remnants of my family from me. Although, I guess that isn't exactly accurate anymore.

Luvia and Gray helped us get to the Church so that the priestess, Caren Hortensia, could help with the wounds we suffered. It took a few days to fully recover, but, before we knew it, we were mostly back to our old selves. It was decided at Sakura's funeral service that she should be buried beside our father and mother. Occasionally, I recall the sacrifice Shinji made in an effort to protect me and Sakura; his final words still haunt me since I failed to save her... I decided it best to lay him to rest next to Kariya Matou.

Professor... Er, Lord El Melloi provided me with some details regarding the case, saying that the Clock Tower officially recognized the magi who attempted to reinstate Heaven's Feel as fanatics. He did that out of respect for me as the Guardian of Fuyuki. I'm eternally grateful to him for that. But what I'm most grateful to him for is not revealing the truth of Shirou's magic, his Reality Marble, to the Mage's Association.

Luvia got some closure for the Edelfelt family after she uncovered some kind of secret from the Third Holy Grail War that she refuses to talk about. She's been a lot nicer to me since all of that took place. It makes me feel uneasy, like she's plotting something...

Those two are also helping me in my effort to get revenge against Zouken Makiri, the man who nearly took everything from me. His body and soul may now be gone, but I'd be lying if I said that was enough for me. I will see to it that his name is eradicated from history, to ensure that any memory or recollection of him dies with me. Ironically, the magus who sought to live forever will not even live on in history. Just thinking about him makes my blood boil, but I just can't settle for simple hatred.

For the past three years I've been further pursuing my magic back at Clock Tower to improve the standing of the Tohsaka family. While I can't fully approve of the beliefs of a majority of magi at the Mage's Association, and the bureaucracy is absolutely exhausting, I'm more than happy to use them as a tool to further improve my magic. I'm living at Clock Tower until I get tired of it all, though currently back in Fuyuki on a short vacation. It's nice to have a break from London food...

As for Shirou, he's doing well. I see him a couple weeks out of the year while he's still working on his journeys alone. I'm not as worried about him now as I once was. After all, he's improved a lot since we first set off to travel the world. I really miss those years we traveled together... It was really nice spending more time with him.

We're still working towards our "happily ever after" together, a simple future where we can eventually settle down. We're both far too stubborn to let something like a long-distance relationship destroy what we worked so hard for, and I trust that we'll grow old together like the boring lovers we've become. Speak of the devil...