Avengers imagines/one shots

All I want - Steve Rodgers

Based on:

All I want by Kodaline

( search all i want - but you will cry on youtube, this is the right version)

Warning: This one contains the big sad

-> death + cursing + depression

It's been nearly 6 months since the love of your life left you. He promised to come back to you, in one piece. He didn't exactly break that promise, he just twisted your words. He came back to you, but in a beautiful brown laced casket.

He had gone without you.

You were lying in your bed, silently crying to yourself. The same thing you had been doing ever since you received the news. You still weren't over his death, doubting you'll ever will. He presented your happiness, that's now, just like him, death.

You suddenly felt furious, filled with rage. He was the one that left you, he did it. You scream into your pillow before throwing it to the other side of the room. Not caring who might hear.

If he really loved you, he wouldn't of left you. You kept repeating it in your head.

It was easier to hate him than live with the constant pain that lived in your chest. To despise him, and all that he stood for.

But you couldn't do it. He was all that was good.

He had kissed your forehead and told you that he loved you. You remembered how you didn't want him to go, telling him you had a bad feeling about that mission.

But he didn't listen, he never listened. You got angry again, screaming that he should've listened: "Why didn't you ever listen to me you fucking asshole! You should've fucking listened to me!"

You yelled like he'd hear you. Like he was standing right there, at the foot of the bed. But he wasn't. He wasn't there. You were alone. Alone, without him. He was all you wanted, all you ever needed. And he was gone.

You cried even harder, feeling the gap inside your heart grow. Your love for one another was never seen before, never even heard of. It was pure, real. You bettered each other, in the best ways possible.

You felt like you were drowning in your own sadness. You wanted nothing more than him. Just him. You wanted to hear his laughter again, feel his hair tickle your cheek when he fell asleep on you shoulder, you wanted to feel his heartbeat against your ear just like you did when you danced together at 3 AM.

You stood up from your bed, weakly walking to the bathroom you had once shared. You opened the cabinet and took out his perfume. You sprayed a little on your neck and then on the big shirt you were wearing. That used to be his as well. You stood there, inhaling his scent.

But you couldn't handle the sharp pain anymore that constantly went through your body. You fell to your knees, crying uncontrollably.

You wanted to be with him again. You needed to be with him again.

You knew what to do next.

I REALLY HOPE YOU LIKED IT!!

I'm currently working an happier imagines, I might even do a smut next! 

Lots of Love,

L