the lives we wished we had | misc. | rant book

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sorry for the weird chapter title...

t/w: i don't really know so... anxiety ? talking to oneself ? confusion ?

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how was your day ?

well, that's not a very easy question...

you weren't very specific about that.

oh... i'm ok, i think...

you don't sound very sure...

is there some sort of criteria for sureness ?

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i feel completely fine if that's what you mean.

suit yourself.

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you know you can cry if you feel like it...

that's weakness.

is it ?

i'll just keep it inside... it'll eventually go away...

hmmm... won't it just build ?

i'm not worried about that.

you're never worried about anything are you ?

i don't let it bother me.

that's just another way of saying the same thing, isn't it ?

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do you not know anymore ?

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are you too tired-- to scared to speak to anyone ?

... speak for yourself.

i am.

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i am you, and you know that.

we are different.

are we ?

yes, i can't relate anything to you !

well then, give me a body; describe me.

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if not like you, how do i look ?

you're just a voice in my head.

ahh, so you know that much...

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i keep leaving you speechless.

what do you expect me to say ?

i don't know... something smart ?

ha ha very funny.

please, it's an art :)