"Her heart! It's beating faster!" the doctor yells.
Why haven't they given up on me already? I'm a hopeless cause... They shouldn't waste their time on someone like me. They should be focusing on someone who at least has a chance of surviving.
It's getting harder and harder to breathe as more people start crowding around me, trying to get my heart to slow down. It's beating too fast for the rest of me to keep up with it. I could be left behind. Actually, that wouldn't actually be so bad. I could just imagine it now. Me in heaven with Dad. We could get that father-daughter time together that we never had.
But then I remember Mom. She was my everything. Who else would help me through my issues? Who else wouldn't judge me, no matter what I did? Dad cared, he really did. But he wasn't Mom.
And then there was always little Fiona and Freddy. I remember the first day they came home from the hospital as if it was yesterday. Mom and Dad were both expecting one baby boy, but they got more than they expected. Freddy came out first, and just as Mom started to relax, she let out a high-pitched squeal. When a small, underweight baby girl came out, everyone was shocked, even the doctors. They expected her to die, as she wasn't a healthy weight and was too small and frail.
Little Fiona had lived through it all. Survived through it all, despite all the doubting from everyone. Even Mom thought she couldn't make it. But she did. She proved to everyone that she could do this. That she deserved her place in this world. And that was why I really admired her so much. She was a fighter.
And in return, I have to fight through this for her.
I will do this for you Fiona. I won't give up. I'll fight through this all....
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What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Stand a little taller,
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone,
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter,
Footsteps even lighter,
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone....
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