Zoning out constantly.
Yes, I'm fine,
X marks the spot on my wrist,
What else could I do? I've done everything,
Very close to actually going through with the plan,
Utter disappointment in self from trauma,
Tell yourself you matter,
Secrets no one could ever know,
Ready to see what comes after life,
Questioning if anyone would even care,
Parents who never cared about me unconditionally,
Only us? No, only me,
Never could wish this on anyone no matter what.
Message me prove that you care,
Little do they know how much I want to die,
Kill yourself they say,
Just keep breathing Im told,
Internal thoughts and urges to never come out,
How can you hate life they ask,
Good boy he says little does he know,
Fights with everyone,
Easy they say,
Dark thoughts and urges,
Caring boyfriend,
Broken promises,
All the work down the drain.
