You're making things worse for me.. Why? (Harry styles) #wattys2015

part 16

-HARRY-

school today, in a way i was looking foward to be going back but i was worried inside to see alexa.

i havent seen her since that night.

i walked into school and waited by her locker i had been standing there for over 10 minutes and she still hadnt showed up. i saw her friend katy by her locker so i went over to her

''wheres alexa?'' i asked she looked at me confused ''she should be here?'' katy replied ''ive not seen her, have you heard from her?'' i asked ''no i havent heard from her since monday night'' katy replied

i had such a bad gut feeling that she had killed herself. she told me she was suicidal.

fuck

no

fuck fuck fuck

my head was going in so many places and i didnt know what to do,

''where slut then?'' ben asked laughing ''boys dont, can we just forget about her?'' i asked ''why?'' jordan asked me ''because, i feel so bad bullying her. i just dont want to do it no more'' i told them.

they completely understood me and we stopped talking about her.

i still wondered where she was and why she wasnt in school.. was she dead? did she kill herself i needed to find out.

i walked out of school and to her house.

her mum answered ''what do you want?'' she asked me ''to see lexi'' i replied ''well shes not here'' her mum said bluntly ''do you know where she is?'' i asked worried

''harry, dont you get the point? you comepltely humliated her, you made her feel so low about herself and made her self harm AGAIN'' she shouted the last bit ''and im sorry about that'' i replied

so her mum knew she self harmed before and now again because of me..

''well its too late now'' her mum said

was it seriously late? did she kill herself. my stomach turned. i felt sick. what have i done?

''what you mean?'' i asked worried

''shes gone away for a few weeks to stay with some friends. she dont be coming back for while'' her mum said ''and dont ever speak to her again harry, she wants nothing to do with you'' her mum said before slamming the door in my face

i felt a sudden relief that she didnt kill herself.

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