Tainted Teardrops [Book no.1- Dhatins of 3030 Indonesia] ✔

22| pity

~ Amity's POV, 5 months later~

Sometimes, I think that the worst of them are gone for good.

But, I know the truth: they're still out there, scavenging for human flesh... Just like how I once did, a few months ago. The people at the RVOB have been nothing but kind to me, and yet I can't help but feel self-conscious. Walking among them, as I once longed to, it feels out of reach, somewhat vague. This feeling, transcends all the way from the pit of my stomach, bouncing up to my throat, where my saliva starts. I start choking on the bile stuck in my throat, as I'm given uneasy glances and looks of pity from the scientists that pass me.

Today is the day.

It seems to creep up on me like a haunted doll, there are just a bunch of flashing lights surrounding me. Washing over me like glaring rays of sunlight, but worse. There's a bunch of chatter and as the news reporters constantly stuff my face with questions that I still haven't answered; I can hear it.

There's something about the word silence that overcame me today, and yet, I wish that I hadn't ever experienced a life living as a dhatin of Blight. Now, looking back, I wish I've never touched a dead corpse, nonetheless, consumed a human body.

And now, all I can think about at this very moment is how though I look human... I don't feel human.

" You okay, Amy?" Henrik asks me, with a sweet smile. He nudges my now human arm like it was just any somewhat regular day. However, he knows the truth: today isn't a regular day.

As the birds sing-song from outside, and as the scientists scurry past me, rushing to help other dhatins, victims of Blight, to give them their medication, the day seems far from ordinary. There's a hush from the crowd that forms around us, as I hear them whispering, their small voices gossiping of big news.

" Isn't she that binge eater?"

" Oh, you mean the one that used to be part of the Berserker Insurgency?"

" Yes, I believe so."

" That man, Henrik, why, he's very kind to have taken her in like she's one of us."

" One of us? Oh please! She looks human, sure, but I can tell: she's just waiting until she can get her hands on some meat, that's for sure!"

They continue to talk trash behind my back, but I know.

If I'm going to be living among humans, I'll need to learn to get on their good side.

If I attack them now, who knows what they'll think of me?

Besides, it's just petty gossip after all!

But, you see, it's not their fault.

After all, Henrik warned me this morning that they'd be coming to interview me, being the very first test subject of the newly released version of the TESTA-PILL. While I had answered their many unnecessary questions regarding myself, I do have to admit that it wasn't the most pleasant experience.

According to Dr.Saros himself, (the man who invented the TESTA-PILL, a pill that can transform any Blight diseased victim back to human), this is the right way to think. If I remember correctly, a few days ago, he told me that because of the Blight disease, my mental health has deteriorated. When I asked him why this was the case, he said that the Blight disease is a disease that is bred in the brain, causing a human's positive mentality to drop and his way of thinking to be blurred. Though he's already explained the reason for this, I'll definitely need to look back on the documents regarding the history of the Blight disease.