I'll miss you | Meredith (Merluca)

Chapter 1

4 days after Andrew died

Meredith has woken up a few hours ago. 10 hours ago to be exact. And since then she knew that something was wrong. She could feel it but no one seemed willing to give her the answers she wanted.

Dr. Hayes had been there to take her off the vent. He had stayed a little, he had told her that he was glad that she was back, that everyone needed her to wake up again. And then when he was paged to another patient, he left without her getting the chance to ask why he was there instead of Andrew. But even if she had gotten a chance to ask, she wasn't sure she could have because she still felt as exhausted as she had never felt before.

At some point her kids had called and even though she was too tired to talk much, seeing her kids and hearing them talk about everything they did and the new dance moves they have learned had given her some strength.The strength she needed now.

A few hours later Bailey had visited her, but Meredith had only noticed her being there when she had woken up as Bailey had been on her way outside again; when she had whispered 'we need you to be strong, Meredith' before she had left the room, closing the door behind her.

And all she waited for that day was for Andrew to come inside her room, to hear his voice again, to see him giving her his smile. But somehow she knew he wouldn't come anymore...

...

"Where's DeLuca?" Meredith asked when Richard came into her room a little later, stopping beside her bed; when she finally had enough strength inside her to at least communicate a few sentences.

"You need to rest, Meredith." She could hear the worry through his usually calm voice. She knew they were all worried about her, especially Richard who was like a father figure to her. But right now she needed the truth. She needed someone to tell her what she was already feeling inside her. And maybe a small part was hoping she was wrong because she didn't want it to be true.

"Richard, please?"

"Something has happened." Richard started, while he was taking her hand sitting down beside her.

"Andrew..." She looked up at him, hoping that she wasn't right. But by the slight nod he was giving her while closing his eyes for a moment to take a deep breath, she knew that this was what has happened.

Andrew wasn't here anymore.

"He- he was stabbed." Richard took a deep breath before he continued "DeLuca and his sister were following one of the human traffickers. He had recognized her again when she was at the hospital... They were able to stop her, but... They stabbed him and..." Richard stopped for a moment to look at her "Andrew died, Meredith. Four days ago."

"No... Richard." She kept staring at him, hoping that he would somehow tell her that it wasn't the truth before she closed her eyes wanting to forget what just happened.

"I'm sorry."

"I- He-" She wanted to say something, in between trying to take a deep breath, feeling like she didn't get enough oxygen. But she couldn't.

"I'm so sorry, Meredith." Richard put his other hand on her arm, hoping it would give her some comfort as far as it was possible in this situation. He tried to calm her down, a little at least, knowing that she needed to rest and stay calm to get physically better again, to be able to get back to her kids.

He kept sitting there for a while wanting to be there for her in this moment, knowing that she has already lost too many people in her life, when he felt her slowly turn around, facing away from him. And he knew that right now she preferred some space. Even though it hurt him to see her like this and it hurt him to have lost DeLuca as a friend, he knew that it must hurt her a whole lot more.

"I'm here if you need anything." He put his hand on her shoulder one more time to let her know that she could call him and then he got up and went outside her room.

And when the door closed again and she was alone in this room and everything was completely silent she felt how the tears were forming in her eyes and soon started to roll down her face.

Andrew had just told her that it was good to hear her voice, that he didn't want to leave... And now... he was gone.

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End of chapter 1

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I'm honestly kinda scared to see how Meredith will react on the show... I don't know why but I am scared that she won't care that much... Like she will be sad but I am scared that they will move on from Andrew's death too fast... Aghhh I don't know... I mean on the beach she did care about him and she said she would miss him, so it would only make sense for her to grieve and take time before she moves on, right? But my trust is a little broken right now... BUT I also want to say, even though I am mad at Krista right now, I do NOT hate her and she does not deserve the hate... I mean she was also the person who gave us DeLuca and Merluca and so many incredible storylines!! Yes, I am mad right now, but I will forever be thankful that we got Merluca!!