TYFTH (oneshot)

So thankyou for the broken heart :')

It was a Sunday Morning :) Supposed to be a great day for me. Im going to the church to thank god for waking me up today and he always maintain my beautiful face.  Charaught. Im trying to have fun here! :p So anyway, im done preparing my things.  And im ready to go.

"mom, i'll go ahead."

"take care kiddo."

"yes mom, bye."

so pagdating ko sa church ayun syempre nag dasal ako like duh! natural. 

PapaGod thankyouuuu po talaga sa blessings na binibigay mo sakin. Thankyou for making me strong :) Thankyouuuu kase kahit ansakit sakit na kinakaya ko padin ngumiti at mag english. Charaught. Pag daw kase brokenHearted nagdra-drama at nag E-english.  Please help me more and give me more strength. :) amen.

palabas nako ng church when someone caught my attention. Aba magaling na nilalang! In all of places. hays. nagdadasal papala sila? oo sila kasama ung kabit niya!

last 25 kase he just broke up with me. -_- and he said he did something wrong. blah blah. then okay. aba malaan ko nag gm #happyInlove daw siya. taeng yan! sabi ko na nga ba yung babaeng madalas namin pinag aawayan ung kabit niya! taengyan hays. kalma kalma.  Naiiyak nanaman ako. That moment you moved on 99 % but if you see him . the pain will go back and torn your heart into pieces. and You will go back to 0%.  That's sounds shitty right ? My heart feel pain. Of course! even im a strong person and i dont usually cry in front of my friends. and im so denial about my feelings and especially to us. I still have a feelings. im hurt but im the only one who knows that. 

Everytime i see them, in pictures. even like this. and they even aware that im here. It hurts me a lot. I really want to punch their faces and kick there butts. and you know i just really want to hurt them. Because they hurt me a lot. But even how i hurt them. It's not close enough to hurt and pain im suffering. Coz it's just physically PAIN.  Me? Emotionally and Mentally Inpain.

i don't hear sorry from him.  Sana gawing HERBAL ang MAKAHIYA. para naman may gamot sa mga taong MAKAKAPAL ang mukha! hays. Malandi, hindi minsan. MADALAS IKAW!  referring to that girl with him. I don't why he likes that girl in the first place. </3

we been in a relationship for almost 5 years. and I swear it's not easy to forget that shit. those Years? those memories ? It's not that easy. We have so many memories. We make a lot of it. Happy , sad, anger . Everything.

In every place i go, every thing i saw . i remember him. i remember every part of him. All the memories . It all reminiscing.  It's sad.

the moment he tell you that he loves you, and he said that he will not give up on you. and everything. Ang hirap naman ata mag move on. 5years teh? Hindi biro yun! 

I turn around. and Breathe! I calm myself down. Or else im gonna breakdown here! inhale! exhale! 

as i face them again.  nakita nila ako! I smile at them. Because SMILE is the best revenge to your enemies.  I smile so they will think that im Fine and BETTER than OKAY. 

Pero papa God can i punch that girl! coz she's getting to my nerves. hays. MAKATI minsan lugar MADALAS IKAW! hays. 

 i turn around and walk away.  I need some place to chill me out. I thought today is gonna be a great day. But it's not.

--8:00 pm--

at the bar. Im gonna sing a song here! and i really want to sing a sad song tonight. im a singer in this restobar! With a club in it. actually it's a three in one. 

I will sing this coz i know his not here!. I really hope so. 

"Ms. anex, the floor is yours."