Septic Ego Oneshots

Prompt Oneshot!

Many of these oneshots will be based off of differing headcanons and possibly some rps that I have participated in.

This one is on the short side of things!

CW: heartache, general angst
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"I think I could fall in love with you."

"Dont."

A simple word. That's all it took to cause him to panic, what did he mean by this?

"Marvin? Wh..why?"  He speaks quietly, hesitant and not sure if he wants to know the reason why.

Marvin turns to face him, taking a moment to watch the idle animations of the glitch's body, his worried gaze and how his chest seems to be moving more.

"Well, Anti," Marvin sighs, crossing his arms. "Have you seen yourself? You're fragile and unstable, not exactly..my type. Me, well I am confident and loved. I am successful, doing what I want with my own resources." 

Every point he makes feels like another stab to the chest.

"What have you done on your own Anti? Die? Look how long that lasted." He says this with no remorse, staring Anti down as he subconsciously curls in.

"I..I'm not.." He wants to just run away and hide, bury down his feelings once again. He wanted to know if hed be accepted. He got his answer.

"I have to go."  He curses the voice cracks.

"Right, go on."  He hums, waving a hand dismissively.  "Go sort your feelings, little glitch."

That hurt.

Anti nods slowly before turning and walking away quickly. With every step the urge to cry grows heavier and he moves faster to get to his refuge.

I cant believe he would say that..I didnt even admit to feelings yet-

He lets the tears fall as he gets to his bed, collapsing down onto his soft haven.

The cries of the glitchs can be heard by all near the walls of his home, full of pain and regret.

"I thought he was different! They're all the same.."  He whimpers into his pillow, remembering every past attempt at confessing his feelings to someone he grew feelings for. "Why does no one like me?" 

He curls up, holding the pillow close. It had grown to be the only thing he cuddled, hes never found someone.

"... I still like him.."  He mumbles to himself, breathing shakily. It hurts. Everything hurts. He likes- no, loves Marvin. He had known him for so long, and he adores everything he does. His skill, magic, and aura in general.

Marvin is enchanting.

Anti loves his magic, and everything else he does.

"Why do you hate me?!"  He yells into his pillow, muffling his pained cries. "I want someone to love! I'm so alone here..I'm trying!"  He soaks the pillow with his tears but hes used to that feeling. The feeling of damp pillow cases and sheets and blankets..

Knock knock.

He sniffles, registering the sound as he slowly lifts his head. He gets up from his bed tiredly, and gets to the door. He opens it first, not bothering to check who it is.

"Hey, bro..?" Its Chase. Of course it'd be him to show up.

"What do you want?"  His voice comes out shaky and quiet. Chase smiles with gentle sympathy.

"Just want to know how you're doing..Marvin said you, had mentioned feelings about him."

Anti shakes and sniffles, feeling tears threaten to come down again but nothing comes out.

"I said.. I think I could fall in love with you." He whimpers and grabs at his face, wanting to go hide again.

Chase moves closer and wraps Anti up in a hug, holding him carefully, like he might break if held to hard.

"I don't know what he.. he might've said, if I said I already have." He finally tears up again, crying into his hands, and leans into Chase's hold. Soft words are spoken by Chase and Anti slowly quiets, listening to Chase brokenly.

They stand together, soft sniffles and words exchange in the air and the two just be there.

"I will always love you, you're like my brother Anti."  He says gently, rubbing the glitchs back slowly and in small circles.

"Thank you.." Anti whispers, wanting to be held forever and comforted.