my life but sad

23/03

I'm honestly sick of my mom
Like
I can't understand her anymore

Sometimes she's nice to me and she helps me with my problems and she tries to understand me
But sometimes
Just like today
She's just so mean
For literally no reason
I just tell her I'm not fine and then
All of a sudden
She becomes angry at me
Like if I didn't have the right to feel bad

I just want to understand
What can I do
What can I do so she can be nice with me all the time and not just sometimes
I don't understand...

I just feel
Worthless
My friends make me feel like I am not
But my mother has the biggest impact on me
And I don't think she wants it
But she just makes me feel like my emotions are worthless...
I can't confess anything to her because if I do she can be nice like she can yell at me
I'm just
I think I'm really starting to lose all of my confidence in her