Merhayes Valentine's

Daddy

Meredith's POV:
"Babe..." Cormac says walking into the kitchen. "Hm?" I reply not looking at him I was doing dishes from lunch and he had just put the younger kids down for a nap. "Zola... was in your room when I was walking back downstairs she looked at me and ran to her room but dropped this." He says holding a brown box object on the air. I freeze "it looks important and sentimental so I wanted to ask where it goes?" He continues in a questioning tone. "What is it?" He asks.

I walk over to him throwing the blue towel I had in my hand on the counter. "I-it's the post it." I say taking it out of his hands rubbing my hand gently over the broken glass. Cormac places his hand on mine stoping me "hey, be careful it broken." I smile looking at the blue paper pinned in the box. "I know. I broke it." I reply looking at him. "Love each other even when we- Mer." He says in the saddest voice ever. I place my hand on his face. "It uh it's what derek and I did instead of a wedding..." I say pulling my hand back. Cormac makes a sad face "I-I-I'm sorry I did-" he stutters. I shake my head "no! No babe you're fine. It's fine I can talk about it, about him. We don't have to but I'm okay." I interrupt him. Cormac nod's as we both sit down in the kitchen chairs at the table.

"We wrote down what we promised each other and signed it. If we got mad we would call post it. It was childish looking back now but it worked." I explain. I wouldn't have and never did have a conversation like this with anyone else but Cormac doesn't judge me. He understands how I feel. "It's not childish." He says. I smile. "When he- when he died I wore his scrub cap. Just because it was his." I say. Cormac places his hand on mine that was resting in the table. He could tell this was hard for me to talk about. "Why don't you wear it still?" He asks.

"I don't wear, or have the post it up because it was too hard to move on. It felt like he was watching me and I knew if he was alive still and I wasn't with him in real life it would kill him to see me with someone new. Putting it out of sight helped me and I wanted and needed to move on. If he magically showed up at the door step one day it would all come back out but that's not going to happen." I explain. Cormac nod's as a tear rolls down my eye. "I'm not upset with you... I wasn't- well I was but I wasn't hiding it." I say looking at him. "I know. You okay?" He asks. I smile and nod still crying. "I miss him. The kids miss him. Cor it probably hurts to hear but I'm not over him. I love him and I always will... I just, love you too."

Cormac's POV:
I knew exactly how Meredith felt and I knew all she wanted right now is Derek. "I know. You know it's the same with me and Abigail." I reply wiping a tear off her face with my thumb. Mer nods. "I love you." I whisper placing my forehead on hers. "I love you." She replies. Meredith and I sat in silence for a few minutes. It was Meredith's least favorite thing to do with me; to just sit and not speak. She hates it unless she's hurt or tired. I stand up walking behind her as I place my hand in her shoulder she leans her head to the left, lightly resting it on my hand. I start moving my hands into her shoulder gently massaging her. "I-" She starts to speak. "Don't. Don't try to talk, just... relax." I say. Meredith doesn't answer me.

I was sitting on the couch with Mer. She is cuddled up next to me my arm wrapped around her. "Cor..." she says turning to look at me. "Hm?" I hum tucking her hair behind her ear. "I- I just wanted to tell that... that I don't want to get married again. It's not something I want and if you do, we should-" Meredith stops talking as my lips meet hers I pull away slowly "I don't either." I whisper as she places her head on my chest.

"Daddy." Ellis says walking downstairs. Meredith looks at me as Ellis walks over to us. "Did you call me dad?" I ask as she climbs on my lap. She shakes her head no "daddy." She corrects me. Meredith is just looking at us. "Oh..." I say not know what to say. "He's not your dad." Zola say from the kitchen. "Mhm!" Ellis yells in an upset tone. "It's okay zola, I'm not your dad but she can call me dad if she wants. I don't mind." Zola walks into the living room Maggie behind her with a glass of water in her hands. "She stole your man Mer." Maggie says making Meredith laugh and nod. "Why would she call you dad if you aren't her dad?" Zola asks. Meredith narrows her eyes at her but Zola ignores her. "Ellis never got to meet her dad Zozo, she just wants to be able to say daddy. It's okay I know I'm not dad." I reply. "That makes no sense. She shouldn't even love you." Zola replies. I don't say anything, my mind goes completely blank. "Zola shepherd! To your room now!" Meredith says as Ellis wraps her arms around my neck hugging me. "Ellis get off him he's not dad!" Zola yells. "Ellis get off!" Maggie grabs Zola's arm walking her upstairs to her room.

Meredith's POV:
I don't know what is wrong with Zola... she has never done this and she knows very well that Cormac is not their father. "I am so sorry." I say looking at Cormac. "It's fine." He replies as Ellis climbs all over him. "Mommy... can I call him daddy?" Ellis asks. I look at Cormac because I wasn't sure what he was okay with. "Uh you'd have to ask Cormac that I'm not sure." Cormac looks at me the same way I had just looked at him.

AUTHORS NOTE:
Shorter chapter for you guys. I feel like this chapter is more realistic with the conversation they had about Derek and marriage. Do you guys think Mer would get remarried in the show?