Paid To Love You

chapter 4

Having a day off feels so good. I haven't had fun in forever but then, nothing last forever at least not in my life.

My off is over and I have to wake up early, to prepare for work.
After doing my morning routine, which involves more of a workout, I still don't feel energized as I had expected. So I have to jog around for about 15minutes.
Seeing how fast the time is, I decide to take a quick shower and I settled for a comfy dress which happens to be suitable for work too.
I couldn't have my breakfast because of the extra 15min I spent jogging. not like I used to, but I'm very hungry this morning.

The company to my house is a 30min drive on a normal day, but everything seems off today. I don't know what's causing this unnecessary traffic, but for some reason, it feels like today is going to be a bad day.

Or maybe I'm just overreacting. I got to work at 8:30 am which is very unusual because, on norms, you'll find me at work at exactly 7:45 am.

As I enter the company, I am welcomed by Maddie's beautiful smile.
Wondering who Maddie is? she works as a receptionist here in Starlight. For some weird reason, Maddie and I seem to get along pretty well. Unlike my other colleagues who seems to derive some sick pleasure in talking to junior workers in an ill manner.

Good morning Sarah, Maddie greeted.

Morning Maddie, I replied right on cue. Damn girl, you seem to have a great night, "you're glowing" I complimented but she only blushed in return.
Aww, we need to catch up later I said with a smile.

Yh whatever was her reply.

Oh! That reminds me, are you okay? I mean is there something you're hiding because you always look composed but you were the complete opposite at the club on Tuesday and you even took the day off yesterday, I am worried about you.

Hmm... I'm fine, a little stressed out but nothing I can't handle. thanks for the care. We hugged each other and I went straight to my office.

I've been working for hours non-stop and it doesn't look like I'll be done anytime soon.
Gosh, am freaking hungry. I reach out for my phone to check for any message or missed call from someone but who am I kidding, nobody cares.
I realize I've been working for 6hours non-stop. No wonder I feel so tired.
I haven't even taken my breakfast and it's 2:30 pm already. I decided to go to a nearby restaurant alone since lunch break is 2:00 and any normal being would have eaten by now leaving me all to myself.

I stopped in front of a new restaurant that just opened right opposite the company.
The restaurant looks classy so what could I possibly lose from eating there?
As I walk-in, I was welcomed by a mind-blowing interior decoration. "wow, I muttered to myself ".
I ordered a burger with coffee. I don't have much time to spend eating, I am busy.
I was eating my burger peacefully when I heard the sound of the door. I turned back to see who walked in. not that it's my business, I'm just curious to know the type of people who visit this place. And to my surprise, the person is no other than Laura, my brother's on and off girlfriend. The moment I set my eyes on her, she looked in my direction and we have eye contact.
I just lost my appetite. Just like I was expecting, she walked straight up to me looking like a Barbie in the ridiculous tight dress she is putting on.

Hey Sarah, haven't seen you in forever and honestly, I didn't know I will see you ever again she said with a fake smile.

Nice to meet you too I reply just as rude as she was earlier.

I can see you still haven't learned your lesson from the way you're talking to me. She said eyeing me with an evil smirk.

Neither have you, I retorted. I suppose you're still with Adams. I took her hard glare as a yes and continue " will you ever give yourself a little respect? Not like you deserve any but seeing you chase after my brother like the little whore that you are is sickening " the least you can do is to respect yourself and stop giving guys the impression that every woman is like you. I said and walk towards the exit.

Is that why your life is so miserable? She said making me stop right on track.
She took that as a cue to walk towards me and continue. Because you want everyone to respect you, you seek validation like your life depended on it.

Awwn sweetie look where that got you. Despite being the sweet little girl, no one wanted you around because turns out you're full of failure and disappointment.
Back then, I never thought your life would turn out like this but look at you looking sad, Aww need a hug for comfort? Can you even afford to eat here? Seeing how lowly you're dressed I can't help but ask what happened to the expensive clothes you used to wear five years ago? Hmm... Let me guess you feel like you don't deserve to wear such. So cute, at least you're back to your senses.

I watch as my eyes burned with water as she said those despiteful words to me. I couldn't even defend myself or think of a better comeback. All I was able to say is "I know you think I don't have what it takes, I know that I might fail. But I'm going to try anyway"

I feel so stupid. When did my life turn out this way, when did I become the forsaken child, why do I have to be the only one suffering when they're the ones that caused me pain.
Do they ever miss me even if it's only on my birthday?
Do they even remember I was once a family member and a happy child who roots for everyone's success? Do they?
Those are the words I kept thinking about, despite knowing I would never find an answer. Because at the end of the day, that idiot was right. I am that miserable loner whom no one cares about.

I didn't even realize I'd been crying so hard in the middle of the road until someone pulls me into a hug.

It was my boss, Nick.
The whole drama unfolded right in front of him.