I feel!
I can feel
Oww, this is Pain. A part of me doesn't want to feel this pain and it wishes to push it away. Another part of me knows that I must feel now to lower the risk of feeling tomorrow.
See, your body gets clogged with emotions from the past. And sometimes the body will regurgitate out feelings that are far more painful now than before you had the attachment.
In these moments I notice the patterns that brought me here in the first place:
I would chant to myself "I don't want to feel." It was too painful.
And now it's Pain accompanied by its sibling, Desperation whispering "Knock me unconscious, it's the fastest way to move on to the next now."
In my opinion, Desperation is much worse than Pain. Its parasites eat you away from the inside leaving dense matters in your place.
Who in the right mind would simply allow themselves to feel that? Well, apparently you don't have to be in the right mind, just the Courageous one.
If you would listen, you could tell that they are all a Nexus - a living organism inside you. These Emotions have found a way to create hierarchy, by blinding you -the host.
So Distractions are created to be crutches that were sold to you by the con artist Fear. Fear said "your legs don't work" and you didn't bother to check! Blind as ever you go every day using your crutches when your abilities have always functioned!
There was a time when you were Courageous to feel, a time that you never remember, a time when you were a baby. Be courageous now and allow yourself to feel.
And I do feel: The urge to keep moving is so intense it's like my body is moving me. I feel desperate in various parts of my body, hip, face, jaw, uterus. This time, I am the change. I'm feeling and releasing.
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Poetry - Raw Feelings
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