I'm losing my head.
I don't know where it's okay.
My mind is going one way and my hearts going another.
All I want is for the earth to open up an shallow me whole.
I pray to a god that no long wants to hear my bullshit.
I love a man who find comfort and warmth in a another woman's arms and all I could do is stand on the side and watch.
I've thought about ending it all but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I feel like I've hit rock bottom but I know this is only the beginning of the darkness that has yet to come.
