The Unhealable Wounds

Hidden feelings revealed

During Bullet of Bullets 3 (BOB): Dessert Cave

"HOW CAN YOU HOLD THE HANDS OF A MURDERER!!!" Sinon yelled at kirito who was standing right in front of her."

"promise me something then." She said as she suddenly looked at Kirito in the eyes as tears started to form in her eyes.

"PROTECT ME FROM EVERYTHING, HOLD MY HAND THROUGH EVERYTHING I GO THROUGH!!!" she was fully in tears now as she started to punch Kirito in the chest repeatedly with no strength and effort.

"You don't know me!" she yelled as she continued to cry.

"I didn't want to deal with the same problems I had years ago." After calming down and recollecting herself she was a bit tired after her emotions overcame her.

"I hate you but can I lay on you?" she asked as Kirito just nodded in silence and sat down leaning against the cave wall with his legs in front of him letting sinon lay on him gently as she closed her eyes to rest a bit.

"Sinon." Kirito said as he was leaning against the cave wall with sinon laying on him.

"..."sinon stayed quiet.

"I also killed someone, three people to be exact and I was in the same situation as you, where it meant life or death in that situation...they tried to seriously kill me and...I had to seriously kill them." kirito said as looked up at the cave ceiling.

Sinon didn't say anything as she was trying to let all of what she heard sink in. After what seemed like forever, she spoke up.

"How did you overcome it?" She sat up and put her hands on Kirito's shoulders looking him in the eyes

"How did you find the strength to overcome those moments."

"..." there was nothing but the soft howling of the wind that could be heard.

"I..." He started to say. "I...I didn't overcome them... I can still see there faces when I sleep and I can hear the voices and words they said as I killed them."

As Kirito started to explain he started having flashbacks of the "Death Games": imprisoning the leader of "The Titans Fist", his battle with Heathcliff who later on revealed himself as Akihiko Kayaba, and the games Final Boss, During the start of the Death Games about 1000 were already dead and when Kirito finally cleared the game the death total skyrocketed to being above the number of roughly around 2500 to 3000.

Gomenasai for such a short chapter guys but I will be updating as frequently as possible, and due to my lack of free time due to having a job and completing paper works for college as well as essays, but I will try to update frequently and feel free to comment on anything that may seem out of place. (everything's appreciated by me whether its judgment or complements :3)