'No! Stop! Please, she's just a baby'.
I cry out but nobody can hear me, there is no acknowledgement I'm even here, no movement from anybody I'm attempting to plead with.
I try to move but its the same, it feels like the soles of my shoes have been glued to the floor holding me in place, forcing me to watch the scene in front of me. The scene where I'm having to watch the one person that means the most to me in this world go through such a horrific experince. All I can do is cry, sob so loud I choke on the breath pushing its way past my lips. The feeling of hot tears continuesly falling only encourages me to cry harder, stronger, so forcefully I can feel the pain making it way through my whole body like its some how gotten into my blood completely wiping out any sence of power I had in my body from the 5 years of living in this world before her.
'Just do it man! If you take any longer somebody is going to find us and see whats happening! Do you want to be the one to explain to the cops why we have a unconscious two year old?' one of the guys say. His hair is grey with a hit of brown I think but its hard to tell as it looks like none of the three of the guys here have washed in about 10 years. His voice is like sandpaper, rough and unsettling to ones ears - must be down to an excessive habit of smoking, hinted by the three packets of cigarettes that lie on the table behind them. Along with two guns, a stacked pile of cash and a huge amount of some kind of drug. Cocaine maybe, some are pills so I have no idea what they could be.
'Fuck no, I'm already on probation dickward'. One of the other men reply but I don't catch who due to the next round of tears bluring up my vision. 'That fucker didn't know what he was getting him and his perfect little family into' I catch who is talking this time, its the guy who looks the most terrifying, he has a scar across the left side of his face from his cheek down towards his jawline and what I'm assuming are burn marks going up his neck. His hair is jet black and pushed back with a thick layer of gel or grease, again hard to tell from the lack of personal hygiene and light. He lingers on the word perfect drawing it out with sarcasm thick in his voice - his voice sounds so agreesive it sends shivers down my spine - its like being assertive is second nature to him. I'm predicting that he's the one running things here. Then theres the third man, he is more scrawny looking compaired to the bulky build both other men have, he some what looks out of place. His hair is different though, his hair is platium blonde with a thick looking substance keeping it out of his eyes just like the second man. He does look the yongest out of them all. The three guys look between thirty to forty as it is he just looks the most out of place, standing by the window with a beam of light breaking through illuminating him. The sound of all three men laughing breaks me from the trance I fell into inviting the pain to crash righ into me once again.
'Please' I cry out again but its just no use, they can't here me. There nothing I can do. Nothing but watch and have my whole world ripped apart. I watch as the three men laugh and attack the closest thing to an angel I've even encountered. The man with the marks which gives an indication of his former life reaches down under the table and pulls out a duffle bag.
'lets get started then' he tells the other men and they all reach into the bags pulling out three needles, they all contain a yellow looking liquid. All three men look between each other and start to approach the unconscious two year old. So I do the only thing my body is pushing me to do.
I scream.
I scream until there is no air left in my lungs.
My screams break into heart wrenching sobs but I continue to inhale and scream again.
Nothing seems to be working, they are all so oblivious to me being here - but why?
I take in another breath and scream again, this time I scream with everything I have. I scream till I feel like my throat is going to combust and my lungs are going to turn in on themselves. This time it works. This time all three men stop dead in their tracks and turn around, looking me up and down, taking in the tear soaked mess I surely am.
'Oh looks who's come to join boys, maybe she wants to watch as we drain the life out of this disgusting excuse of a child.' The scrawny one says with humour as if its a joke between the boys. I have to stop myself from gagging as I'm now finally able to take in their full appearances.
'Maybe we should have some fun with her before we crack on lads, she's got a pretty nice set on her' the yongest looking one suggests, this time I don't stop myself and I choke out a gag. They all laugh and start making their way towards me. I want to run but my feet. They just won't budge.
'No, s..st..stay away from..m me, n..no' I manage to stammer out but they just brush it off and continue my way.
'Hey, Hey, Wake up its just a dream!' 'Hey, wake up' 'Come on wake up girl, its just a dream.' I can feel my body being shaken, I can feel that somebody is trying to pull me out of my partially unconscious state.
'HARPER WAKE UP, ITS JUST A DREAM!' My eyes shoot open from the loud sound, my body follows as I try to gather myself, my surroundings and what is actually going on. My head starts to spin from sitting up so fast that I feel like im going to faint until I feel two soft familar hands grip my shoulders and steady me, I slowly open my eyes again not realising I'd closed them, to find my best friend Alex sat on the small space beside me on the bed. She has one foot tucked under her bottom and the other on the floor to steady herself so she doesn't fall off the side of the bed.
'Oh my Harper the same dream again? Thats the fifth night in a row. What do you need? What can I get you?' Alex shoots questions at me and I don't know which one to answer first. So I just go with 'Yes, I know, i'm sorry, nothing and maybe a hug' as soon as i'm finished I regret saying nothing for what do you need because a glass of water would be great to soothe the rough feeling in the back of my throat. I obviously was shouting and screaming in my sleep as the soreness of my throat would indicate.
'Oh babe of course.' she pulls me into her chest giving me a really tight hug - like shes trying to squeeze the pain of my dream from my body and repace it with a warmth she always has in her heart. I can smell the sweet scent of the rosewater moisturiser I got for her birthday a few months back and it feels me with a sence of security. 'Thank you Alex' I say to her and squeeze her a little tighter to show my gratitude and love of her always being here when I need her. My voice is somewhat croaky backing Alex's earlier comment about it being the fifth night of terrifed screams and pleas. Alex just hums back in response as she rubs a hand up and down my back in a sooting motion, I've only ever told Alex what really happened. She's the only person who really knows me.
'Come on lets get you back to bed, its 2.26am, gets earlier every night.' Alex helps me scoot over into the middle of my double bed and lay down, covering me with my duvet. She hops in next to me and lets me hug her until I start to feel sleep approaching once again.
'I'm sorry this happened to you Harper. I'm so sorry they did that to Abby. Alex says it so quitely that I almost don't catch it. I grab her hand and give it a gentle squeeze acknowledging her comment before being pulled back into a deep sleep.
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Hi Hi Hi!!
Happy Easter - if you celebrate it of course! 🐣
Soooo first chapter what we all thinking? Also three names revealed!
We have
Harper May Fernsby
&
Alex Phoenix
&
Abby
My two leading ladies! - Don't worry you will meet the boys soon too!
Annd I promise you it does get better! Even going back to editing these chapters I find them so hard to write, I want to keep it as consitant as I can but also not give a lot away!
Now for the emotional stuff...
I just want to say a massive thank you to everybody who has read, voted, commented and put into their libarys - it truly means the world to me and i'm so so thankful! I love you all so much! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Any questions please feel free to ask away!
Hope you enjoy!
All the love -K
