You think you can hurt me??
I live in the constant fear that my thoughts mean something. I constantly find 'evidence' that my thoughts are facts and are a part of who I am. I live each day terrified that I'm a terrible person something I don't wanna be. The need to punish myself because I believe I'm a horrible person. My brain is drowning me in disturbing thoughts and urges. I'm constantly afraid I'm a bad person, living each day with guilt and self doubt. Feeling like I'm stuck in a monster's body and theirs nothing I can do about it. That my thoughts are apart of who I am. That I'm stuck being the person I don't wanna be. No control over my brain or the thoughts and beliefs I have. Living each day knowing that this isn't who I wanna be yet I can't control who I am.
Lol.
