i'm going to be completely honest with you. i wish you didn't love me. i think i just wasn't meant to be loved. if only you could see the world through my eyes. you'd understand why i'm saying this. actually don't. i don't want you to experience the pain i do. i don't want you hurting, the way i do. i say i'm sad. sometimes there's not always a reason behind it. sometimes it's my brain telling me no one loves me, and i don't deserve love and affection. and i agree. i'm such a difficult person to love. i can be depressed and suicidal. i don't want to be a burden to you. i say i feel annoying and i'll go, but i want to stay. i want to know you care. i want you to show me. i'm a very anxious person. sometimes i won't even be able to order my own food. i swear i don't want to be like this. if i could, i'd change myself in a heartbeat. i don't want to be this way. i'm sorry i cling to you like a shadow. i just never had someone who gave me the attention, love, and affection you do. i've always been lied to. everyone's always left me, so i expect the worst from people. i'm so scared of you leaving. i've been lied to so many times, i can't believe anything anymore.
"words are just dust in the wind" said and gone within an instant, and sometimes empty and untruthful.
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What It's Like In My Mind
Короткий рассказA collection of poems/stories I wrote of what it's like in my mind. It may not be for everyone, it includes mentions of suicide, swearing, and mentions of my trauma.
