Still The Good Girl?

Chapter 13

I wake up to someone poking my cheek. I role over and try to make it stop.

"Hey, Clary! I need to talk to you, it's really important" this comes from a voice that I would recognize any day. I finally open my eyes and rub the sleep from them. I turn to my mom and at first I just stair at her but then I remember I haven't seen her in I don't know how long so I lottery launch myself at her.

I attack her into a big bear hug and squeeze her like I haven't seen her since I was like three or something.

"Oh I missed you so much!" I whisper now giving her a more loose hug then before. After sitting there hugging I sit back. "So what did you want to talk to me about?"

"Oh yea, well I want to hear about your vacation first!" She try's to change the subject, this is not good, any other time she would just spit out with it, only when something bad has happened is when she try's to avoid it.

"Well it was very good! I had a lot of fun, and I may now have a boyfriend!" She squeals at my news.

"Well, who is this brave boy!" She starts, "you know your brother is going to scar the daylight out of him"

"Well Caleb already kind of hates him, and his name is Luke! He lives next door" I say

"Oh I've seen him around! He seems pretty cute!" She responds.

"So, I'm done, what did you want to tell me?" I urge her.

"Well you see when I went to go 'visit' your dad before you left, I actually had a very important doctors appointment. A month ago the doctor told me that I have Brest cancer" I'm shocked at this, I start to tear up "and it's stage 4. They can't do anything but try chemo and see how it reacts." That's it I lost it, I just break down right there.

I sob into my mom and she cries with me. We sit there for a while until Caleb comes in.

"You finally told her?" He says.

"What do you mean finally told me?" I look at them both, they both have guilty faces on. I turn to Caleb "how long have you known?"

"About a month" he looks down.

"You know for a MONTH! And neither of you told me! Your only daughter!" I scram at them I get up and storm out. Tears of anger and sadness run down my face. I grab my purse and Caleb's keys and I leave.

I am driving for a while before I finally despise to actually go somewhere. I drive to a local diner.

I walk in and they seat me in the back. I order a hot coco with whipped cream. I sip on it and just get devoured into my own world.

How could she do this to me? How could she not tell me? How could she keep this from me?! How did I not notice?

Of course, I think of the unanswerable questions. I hate my life! I do! I don't know what I'll do without my mom! I won't be able to live! I really won't! I just want her with me forever!

I bet my dad has no clue that she even has the freaking brest cancer! Is this what I get for not being religious, or for finally having something good in my life? Does this world just hate me that much!

Fine, if you really want me world then go ahead and have me! See what I try to stop you! See why I care! I'm done with havering nothing but shit to deal with I'm just a waist of space in this world. I really am.

No one will care if I'm gone, not a tear will be shed, they will all celebrate and dance. And they should!

By now it's like 12 o'clock and I should be getting home. I pay for my bill and get into my car and start to drive.