Will You Be My Always? (PerthSaintPerth)

28. PIN AND YIM

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I like this chapter 😐 It has many emotions in one. It starts sad, but it will get better I promise💖
Do not eat or drink while reading the other half of this chapter😜
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It was two in the morning when the person peacefully sleeping on the bed, suddenly started thrashing around. Curling his body in a fetal position, sweat started running over his body. His heart started pounding out of control and his eyes were shut tightly, enduring the suffering in his head. Somehow curling even more inwards he tried to scream, but no voice left his throat. He was drenched in sweat by now and his eyes shot wide open. 

Taking deep breaths, he tried calming his racing heart and it worked. His breathing came back to normal along with his heartbeat, but his brain still wondered about the horrific images he just saw. He somehow got up from the bed and reached the bathroom on his wobbly legs and held on to the washbasin. A frustrated groan felt his lip and then he splashed some water on his face, he was used to it by now.

Looking at his face in the mirror he felt both anger and pity over himself at the same time. Pity, cause he looked weak, weaker than he has ever been and anger cause he knew it wasn't his fault, yet he can't help but feel this way. He washed his face and went to lie sleepless on his bed again, he was about to move in with Saint tomorrow again. 

It has been thirteen days since he moved out now. Thirteen almost sleepless nights making him look like a zombie. He was drained to his core, his memories kept haunting him over and over. Before remembering this, he has had nightmares from his childhood but they always stopped at him being locked in an old, dark, and dust-filled room, causing him to develop Nyctophobia. But now everything was coming back to him in bits. Every nightmare gave him a different piece of the puzzle, painting a vivid image of the event.

His judgment of him being alone didn't work how he thought it would, instead he had to go through this emotional turmoil all alone. But he felt it wasn't totally wrong as it might've disturbed their peace and having a gloomy mood isn't good if there's a kid at home. 

Last night he got a call that made his heart shatter in pieces. Saint finally called him, asking for help. 

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After Perth left their place, nothing felt normal again. He missed him to death, he used to ask Sammy about his condition every day. Her voice laced in guilty answered his questions making him feel even sadder. He tried explaining to her that it wasn't her fault. But both the siblings were too stubborn to do so. He heard that Perth stopped going to work and was abandoning himself from the world.

He uses to visit him daily until one day, Perth asked him not to. It hurts when Perth just pushed him away not even trusting him a bit to help. He was heartbroken. Peggy tried her best to console Saint as Perth was acting very rude asshole to everyone. He told him to wait, cause the Perth she knew will come back to them eventually.

Moon on the other hand was trying her best to stay happy but the clouds of gloom wandering near their house finally got her. Moon had a few nightmares almost a week after Perth moving out. It's been more than half a year since Perth moved in and she got used to his presence and him not being around even for a brief time made her feel uneasy. Saint tried his best to console her and she smiled, but then she had a fever which was not going away, so there was no other option left but to call Perth. His voice sounded hoarse, but after hearing this, his voice softened immediately and with a worried tone he said that he'll come back tomorrow. 

Perth moved in the next day. Moon jumped on him as soon as he came back, he almost had to carry her the entire day. Everything seemed fine but he didn't speak much. After they finally tucked Moon in her bed and Perth was left alone with Saint. Saint tried to speak and so did Perth but it wasn't the same. After a point, Perth got up and went to sleep. Saint was left alone again, but he didn't want to cry as even if Perth isn't the same now. His moving in again was a huge achievement.