Imprecise Affection

𝐌𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬

Diamonte Jackson
📍At Her House📍
3:56 AM

I cried in Kentrells arms. This is crazy. I never thought she'd kno in a million year that we got this thing going on.

Guess we needed to get caught. I mean. I am doing my bestfriend wrong. She's been my bestfriend for a long time. Dat friendship broke, like Layton said it was all my fault. I fell in love too hard.

"Stop sitting hea crying. We did ha wrong together. Dat ain't nobody fault but ours. We can't blame nobody." Kentrell said

"Who the fuck said I was blaming somebody?" I said looking up at him

"Say." He laughed "Lose ya attitude."

"I don't have a fucking attitude." I mumbled

"Say wat?" He said

"I said I don't have a FUCKING attitude." I said clearer

"Don't make me get on ya ass guh."

"Kentrell, get out." I smh

"Ha, I'm chilling." He laying back with his hands behind his head

"You won't be chilling hea, no mo', fuck out." I said pointing to the door

"Ian even finna argue." He chuckled "Don't call me asking to fuck."

"I won't. Ion know why I was all up on a dick dat was in my bestfriend pussy. Ugh." I said smh

"You love tha dick dat was all up in yo bestfriend pussy." He says walking out

I roll my eyes and lay back on the bed. Disgusted with myself. My mama taught me better than dis'. At least before she got locked up.

She told me, "Don't eva, eva be fake. Always be real with the people ya kno be real to ya. Never be incapable in eitha way. Incapable in love. Or in life. In life as in; unable to do or achieve something. Now this one's important, incapable in love as in; if don't love yourself. You can't possibly love anotha person or even know how to love someone else if you haven't learned to love who you are first."

I never listened to it.

I saved it in my mind and in my heart.

But I never thought 'bout it.

Knowing it's the truth.

Knowing it.

I chuckled to myself.

I just need a chance to start over. A new life.

Why'd mine had to be dis way god?

Nah, nah.

Ian gone ask god. I made my life this way. I did dis. All on my own.

I took wat my bestfriend had and wanted it to my self.

Not thinking.