rosa x reader

work acquaintances

rosa's pov

fuck fuck fuck

as I woke up and got out of bed my knees felt weak and I felt sick to my stomach while I remembered what happened at the bar last night with y/n.

was gina right? am I gay? what would've happened if Terry hadn't interuppeted? I have a boyfriend. why did I do that?

my head was filled with a million thoughts but I didn't have time for those. I got ready for work in a rush and as I was on my way out the door I hesitated.

I starred straight at my shut door. I felt tears fill my eyes.

how am I going to face y/n at work

I was acting like a fucking idiot over a girl I just meant. I blinked away my tears and stormed out of my apartment.

I hopped on my motorcycle, put on my helmet and rode to work.

I purposely hit every red light on the way there.

y/n's pov

I sat silently at the edge of my bed while processing what had happened last night.

she was drunk. I was drunk too. she didn't mean anything by it and I don't want it to mean anything. I have a boyfriend and I'm straight.

I dropped my head into my hands while feeling an overwhelming pressure of guilt and embarrassment.

I'm not homophobic in anyway whatsoever but as a kid it was drilled in to me that if I was gay I would burn in hell and all that jazz. I obviously know that that's not true but if I was gay, which Im not, my family would drop contact with me, no hesitation.

I don't want that.

I slowly stood up from the edge of the bed and got ready for work quietly. I didn't want to wake up my boyfriend who was still sleeping peacefully.

I looked at his gentle face while he was still asleep. I felt tears fill my eyes. I basically just cheated on him.

I had finished getting ready for work and sat next to y/b/n on the bed.

I reached my hand to his shoulder and rested it there for a moment.

"hey wake up baby." I said in a hushed tone.

he yawned and focused his eyes on me. I felt more tears reach my eyes.

"I'm headed to work, okay?" I said looking straight past him.

"ok, have a good day y/n/n." he said through a yawn.

I bent down and kissed his forehead and left the room.

as I shut the door to the bedroom I heard him say in a tired voice, "I love you."

those words made me stop in my tracks. I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"I love you too." I responded quietly.

I walked out the door of my apartment building and got in my car.

I purposely hit every red light on the way there.

rosa's pov

I slowly walked into the bullpen and made it clear that I was not in the mood to talk to anyone by handing out glares to people as I walked by. I sat down in my desk and ignored everyone around me.

the elevator door dinged.

I heard the sound that I had dreaded all morning.

I watched as y/n walked into the bullpen. she waved at everyone and said hi through a smile that was clearly faked. I don't know how any of the dummies in the bullpen didn't pick up on her odd behavior.

she sat down at her desk next to mine and gave me a slight smile. I snarled in return.

we worked without saying a word to each other while the buzzing bullpen filled the silence in the air.

Terry called us in for yet another morning briefing.

I stood up and headed toward the briefing room while y/n stayed a couple feet behind me. I slumped down in to my chair while y/n sat beside me without a word. I missed hearing her jokes and laughter fill the air. instead it was an empty and awkward silence.

it was a slow day in the precinct so Terry had no big cases to hand out. I was given a b+e that just needed it's paperwork done. at least I could do this alone. the squad left the briefing room and all returned to their desks.

I tried to focus on my paperwork but my eyes kept shifting back to y/n.

what is wrong with me?

a couple slow hours passed and Terry walked up to me and y/n's desk.

unfortunately for me our desks had been moved together to save space in the bullpen just this morning.

"hey I need you two to go check out a b+e scene near downtown. you guys cool with that?" he asked.

I hesitated for a moment.

"sure sarge." I heard y/n say in down tone.

"great, I'll send you the address!" sarge stated cheerfully.

I shifted my eyes back down to my desk not believing that y/n just agreed to take that case with me.

"come on let's go Diaz." y/n said while standing up and grabbing her jacket.

I slammed my hands down on my desk loud enough for only y/n to hear and sighed heavily.

she looked back at me worriedly while I followed her to the elevator. we both stepped in the elevator and the doors shut behind us.

"dia-"

"shut up." I cut her off.

we finally left the elevator and got in my detective car. y/n didn't speak to me once during the length of the car ride. I hated it. I usually hate just talking to people in general but talking to her was different.

eventually we reached the address of the b+e we were working.

y/n's pov

I stepped out of rosa's car and entered the house of the robbing victim. Diaz had barely said a word to me all day.

we walked through the house and did the same exact thing we did every time we had to sweep the scene of a low profile b+e. after about an hour of Diaz's and i's awkward silences and looking for clues we were finally ready to head back to the precinct.

rosa and I got in her detective car and she started driving towards the precinct's direction.

"about the bar last night,-" I started. Diaz cut me off.

"im straight." she said sternly.

"great. me too." I responded through a relieved face.

after a couple more seconds of tense silence I started talking again.

"great... does this mean we can go back to being frien-"

Diaz gave me a glare.

"work acquaintances. work acquaintances." I corrected myself quickly.

"sure, whatever." Diaz said as a smiled tugged at the corner of her lips.

"good. the precinct is so boring without hearing your insults." I teased at her.

she glanced back at me with a small smile. I laughed a little when our eyes met.

I was glad we were back on talking terms.