A Whisper Away

Longing the love?

"He is going to reject it within a second"
Y/N said frustrated with her team not able to set yoongi's lyrics properly on the sound track.

"But mam..It doesn't even sound like a love song with all that high pitch noise and sir's aggressive rapping. "..... " Yes mam, there are no emotions in this song.. No matter how much we try. It doesn't sound good enough." 
The members of the team are trying to make you understand that yoongi's lyrics are too harsh. Too aggressive for a so called love song.
You are defeated at this point. Its the last track of his 3rd album as agust d. Every song is marvellous but this one song. This one "love song" Has made you all have a mental breakdown.
Yoongi wants this song to be comforting... He wants this song to remind them of the feeling of falling in love but the lyrics sound like love is a corporate that he is trying to demolish.

Working as a head of yoongi's personal Producing team is not easy. The day you saw him for the first time in BTS's first concert you fell in love with his passion for music. It made you determined to learn more and more about music...
The thing you love the most.
As a shy and introverted child, your poems and writings being the only way for you to express yourself. You decided to join his team and instead of getting trained as an idol...you were training to be a producer...just like him.

Time skip.
      
"Sir-".." Yoongi!" .... Yoongi always corrects you instantly when you call him sir. Being called sir by you doesn't fit right to him.
"Yes.. Sorry.! Uhmm.. Yoongi..that love song." You were nervous... Kinda scared.
You don't like upsetting yoongi. Its not like he is ever going to scold you or even ever be slightly rude.
He just gets silent... Isolates himself and doesn't let anyone into his bubble until he cools down.

"What about that song Y/N?" He questioned calmly...its like he knows what you're gonna tell him.
"We ..hmm... We think the song is not as good as other songs... I-it feels..forced." You try to convey while constantly telling yourself to calm down.
"Forced?" Yoongi titled his head in confusion.
" I mean.... The song... I mean your emotions seem forced. Like you don't feel the lyrics when you Rap it." Your heart is beating faster and faster.

"Hmm... I knew it! " Yoongi said.
"Huh?... What?" Confusion is written all over your face. "I mean... Its true I've never felt so strong emotions about any other person... So its kinda predictable why I can't put them in this song." Yoongi said calmy.
A long sigh escapes your mouth as a sign of relief. "So are you gonna replace the song, yoongi?"
"No.... This song is going in this album. Now its upto me how I get those emotions out." Yoongi declared.
His comment made you nervous again. What now? What are we going to do nowwww?  Think y/n think! You've been getting trained past 3 years.. You should know the solution to this until now.

You mind was getting anxious again.... But you can't do nothing but agree with yoongi because he is the expert here. You are just going to trust his genius now.

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"Urghhhhh" Yoongi is getting frustrated with himself. "What am I gonna do?... How? ...  What am I suppose to do now?" Yoongi grabs his hair in frustration.
Seems like sometimes genuis himself doubts his genius.

On the other hand you're contemplating to call yoongi or not... What if I disturb him? What if he gets annoyed at me? but what if I am able to help him someway?
Oh whom are you kidding? You can't even help yourself.!

"Fuck it... I'm gonna go To the genius lab... I am too anxious to be sleeping right now!" Y/N is going to use her 'you can come to genius lab once in a while if you feel like it.' Privilege.
"I'm coming sir... I mean..yoongi!" You dashed your way towards him.

Knocking on the door... Y/N is anxiously waiting for yoongi to let her in.
"Is he asleep? .... No way he is gonna sleep until the album is ready."
And the door open revealing yoongi.

"Y/N?... What are doing here?" His concerned voice did not get unnoticed by you.
"I was just... I was getting very anxious thinking about the song.... And you stressing out about it... I wanted to help you...somehow!" Your words bought a light smile on yoongi's lips.
"Come on then... Help me make the best track of my album." Yoongi said making a way for you to enter.

Seating on the chair beside him. You are waiting for him to sing the song for you. Wanting to know if he made any progress.
As yoongi starts the chores.
His voice is... Usual?
"This is not another 'im gonna fuck you up hater you ain't shit' kinda somg yoongi..... This song is about how somebody who didn't even knew they needed love ended up becoming addicted to it." You explained.
Yoongi was feeling weirdly proud when you explained his own lyrics to him. Like a professional.....  Like you always wanted to be.

     Flashback

"So what do you want exactly?" You bit your lip nervously on yoongi's question.. "S-sir.. I've passed t-the auditions b-but I don't want.. Want to be an idol... I want to learn from you and be-become a professional music producer."
You stated trying to be confident.

Yoongi saw so much determination in those deep eyes of yours. He saw a glimpse of himself as a desperate rapper wanting to shine.

"Alright then... Starting from tomorrow.. You are going to be in my team.
'Team agust d'... You will have to start from the bottom. I will train you and also have you employed here. Only of you promise me to give your best."
Yoongi said....
He loved the way your eyes widened and you aggressively started thanking him.
"Thank you sir!! Thank you so much!!"

He chuckled at your cuteness.... Since that day her grew very fond of you.

Present

"Alright... So do you have any suggestions for this song?" Yoongi asked you..curious at your response.
"I mean you've never been in love... So how would you know about the heart breaking feeling of longing it..." She said... For a second yoongi caught a shade of sadness in her eyes.
'Is she longing love?' 

"Y/N?... How do you know about this feeling?" Yoongi wanted you to answer honestly but he was also afraid of your answer....

You smile slightly...  "I just know the feeling of longling this love yoongi....
I could never have it..... to feel it."
Thats it... Her answer was like a crack on his heart.
'That means she has loved somebody... Who is he?... And how could he not love you Y/N?'
Yoongi wanted to ask so many questions... But his heart was asking him not to... He knew her answers are gonna hurt him...
Why? Why her loving someone will hurt him?  What is going on with you yoongi?
Her being close to someone else, why does this thought.... Scares you?