Dark Clouds

Dark Cloud

Darkness fills my thoughts
Shutting out any light
Every second of every moment feels like a shot
Making it hard to fight.

I should be fine
They say I'm fine
But, am I?

I want to tell myself what I say to others
But I don't even bother
Because I don't trust myself.

She says things are going to change
But all I feel is more pain
Growing like a flamed house

Once in a while a ray or light shows through the dark cloud
I grab onto the hope like a rope
But good things aren't allowed to stay
They always run away,
From
Me.

I want someone to see
I want someone to know
I want someone to share this pain with
Someone who cares

But no one sees
But no one knows
But no one notices

I cry out for help, yet they don't hear
All they hear is laughter
I let tears fall
Behind these walls
Where I can wallow in sadness

Yet of course I don't let myself
Acknowledge myself
Feel myself
Or be myself

I feel like a fake
I feel like a fraud