Spin the bottle|| Billie eilish

eleventh

It's been 2 weeks since Ive seen billie. She went to stay at a friend's house since shes been posting on her story with them together lately. She looks happy and I'm glad she does but I wonder if she's misses me as much as I miss her. It's been really difficult to get out of bed,eat,sleep and I don't even go on my morning runs. Online school is an option so I've been doing that ever since. It's exhausting. My mom yells at me for not doing anything. And it's so fucking stupid because she knows I'm struggling but I'm trynna hang in there.

            June 19,Monday

My alarm clock was billie singing a song she wrote just for me. So it was the only thing I was looking forward to waking up to. I decided to go to school so my mom would stop bitching at me. I got out of bed with absolutely no motivation. I walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth and brush my hair. 10 minutes later I walked out the bathroom and got into the closet to pick an outfit. Sweatshirt and sweatpants. Perfect. I smiled to myself as I took them off the hangers and began changing. I put my dirty clothes in the hamper and put on mascara and chapstick since it's all I wear. I grabbed my backpack,tossing it over my shoulder and shoving my phone in my pocket. Since me and Jules haven't talked ever since I brought up the photos she hasn't been picking me up from my house so we can go to school together so I just walk. I grabbed an apple,looking over at the living room seeing my mom passed out with the TV still on. I sighed and walked out the door, locking it behind me. I began on my way to school while staring at the ground counting how many steps it took me to get from one concrete tile to the next.

Eventually I made it to school and everybody was walking in so I just merged in with everybody and blended in. I didn't go to my locker because I was so lazy to put my stuff away so I took it all with me to first period, chemistry. I sludged into class and walked to the back of the room where my seat was. I dropped my bag on the floor and sat in my seat. While I was waiting for school to start I was scrolling through insta to trynna pass the time. When suddenly I felt billie sit down next to me. I didn't wanna look at her but I knew it was her from the shoes and baggy pants I could see her wearing. I turned off my phone and sat it on the table as class began. Usually me and billie always work on our assignments together but today,that wasn't the case. I sighed and got my notes out as the teacher,Mr.Higgens started to speak,"goodmorning class today we have another new student her name is Bri make her feel welcomed!" A 5'7 girl walked in,she was wearing a black high waisted skirt and a black jacket with a cropped shirt underneath. She wore dominias which were a super difficult pair of shoes to walk in considering they are platform shoes. There was an empty seat in the table next to me so the teacher put her there. She walked to the seat next to me and sat down. I looked at her and smiled,"Hey I'm valerie but val for short it's nice to meet you". She looked at me and smiled in return,"nice to meet you val what a lovely name you have". The teacher called for everybody to pay attention to the next lesson he was going to start.

                 Lunchtime

Class ended and I grabbed my things,heading out the exit. Billie was already gone but Bri followed behind me. I suddenly got the urge to turn around and ask her,"hey wanna eat lunch together??"I usually ate lunch with Billie but she doesn't seem to look at me anymore but it's whatever. Bri nodded in excitement and I took her wrist and pulled us through the big crowds that was heading outside to eat. I pulled her into an empty gym and we sat at the top of the bleachers. We both pulled out our lunch and began eating. Me and bri actually found out we had a lot of things in common which made out convos so entertaining. We'd laugh at all the stupid shit to. I wiped off my mouth,"so how are you liking it here so far?" Bri replied,"I mean it's okay,I used to live in Canada so the weather was like different everyday so it's difficult to adjust to the weather here."((y'all PLEASE DON'T ATTACK ME FOR THE CANADA THING I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT THE WEATHER IS THERE😭)).
We finished eating and threw away our lunches,heading back to our last period class which was history. My least favorite. Me and bri walked to that class together. While we were walking the bell rang and we started laughing and running to history which was all the way across the school,"bitch come on WERE ALREADY LATE." I started laughing while dragging Bri,"SLOW DOWN IM IN PLATFORMS." We were laughing the whole way there then we burst into class with everyone staring at us then we just stood there before laughing even more and heading to our seats. The teacher looked at us with the most disgusted face ever. We died down our laughter and wiped the tears from our eyes and focused back on class. Class was always over and I nudged on Bri,"psst wanna come over to my house after school??" I gave Bri a smile and she nodded excitedly in response .

((THIS WAS KIND OF A LONG CHAPTER BUT IVE BEEN WORKING ON IT THROUGH SCHOOL SO I HOPE YALL LIKE THE NEW CHARECTER I ADDED IN THE STORY IT WILL DEFINITELY AT SUSPENSE 😩😩))