blue tears

The Mirror

TW; Self hatred thoughts

Rin's P.O.V

"We don't have school today," Bon started.
"I know, I'm not stupid! Well at least not that dumb.."
"Did you want to hang out with my friends and me?"

What happens if I mess this up? And I make everyone hate me, as much as I hate myself? No one would ever forgive me.. they'll all make fun of you, until the day you die.. and no one would care..

No, no. It should be fine, just nod, and agree to go.

"Yeah, sure."
"Alright, I'll see you later, I suppose," With that, Bon left.

I sighed, "You dumbass, you didn't even say what we were doing!"

I then decided I wanted to light my candle, but I didn't want to get up and do so. Oh yeah, I Satan's son! The only good thing my father has ever given to me.

And so I lit the candle. It felt warm and cozy, I laid back down into my bed, and smiled. Today is going to be a good day. I fell back asleep.

"Rin, hey.."
"Bon?"
"I need to tell you something.."

"Rin,.. I.. I hate you, you are a terrible monster, that deserves nothing, and on one. Everyone hates you, they know what you've done. Especially to yourself."
"What? What do you mean?"

"Look at yourself. God, you're such a pathetic loser. You're disgusting."

"And you call yourself a man, pathetic."

"Stop... stop.. stop please," I cried.
"No wonder your brother is more grown up."

"Look at yourself in the mirror Rin, what do you see?"

Hearing things like this coming from someone else hurt a lot. Especially someone I consider a friend.

"I'm not.."
"Rin, you're the reason your old man died. You like boys? Why couldn't you be a straight? It would've been so much better for everyone."
"That's not me, why don't you understand?"

A/N; I speed ran this chapter. Also I'm not Fern. :D
Oh and I wrote this chapter similar to how most people in my life see me. :)

Have a good day!