Emma
These last few days have been the toughest, I never thought I'd experience something like this but you will end up experiencing it at some point in your life, I just didn't expect it to happen with the person who i called 'the love of my life'.
Non stop messages of him, whether that being throughout the day or late at night, begging for my forgiveness and telling me how he loves me even after all the pain he caused me because of this.
The words of what he used to say to me whether that being on text or in person when we'd be together at his apartment or mine just linger around in my mind and make me question what I could have done for this not to have happened. Was it me who caused this? Was I not enough? Did his mates push him to do this? It just didn't add up to me..
I heard my phone ping hoping it wasn't him, and it wasn't, but instead it was Cal, it was weird for Cal to message me this late. But I didn't bother to look at it straight away, because I knew instantly that he would have told Cal and gotten him to message me to tell me how heart broken he is and that he wants to start fresh, but I couldn't allow myself to get hurt again but I knew deep down this isn't what I want.
However, I decided I needed to have a look at Cal's message, maybe Harry didn't tell Cal and Cal wanted to know how I have actually been? But somewhat of me didn't believe that.
