HEY! YOU LUCY.I STILL REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I MET YOU AT THE OLD BOOKSTORE IN THE 10TH STREET IN THE MIDDLE OF THE AUTUMN YOU ARE WEARING BRIGHT YELLOW HANGING SHIRT WITH A BROWN KNEWW SKIRT AND YOUR KEDS THAT HAD A FLOWER DETAILED DESIGN. I LOVE HOW YOU LOOK LIKE.
IM FINDING A BOOK THAT I HIDE ON THE SHELF YOU WERE STANDING AT I WALKED CLOSER TO YOU PLACE WHILE YOU STILL CRITICIZING THE BOOK THAT YOU ARE HOLDING. YOU SMILED WHILE READING THE BOOK.
I PASSES TO YOU PLACE AND START TO FINDING THE BOOK I HIDE THERE,
ONE BY ONE, I READ EACH OF THE TITLES, TOUCHING THE TEXTURE OF THE EACH BOOK IN THAT SHELF IT HAD DIFFERENT COLORS BUT I STILL LOVE TO LOOKING AT YOUR COLORS.
AND I FOUND THAT THE BOOK I HIDE IS THE BOOKSHELF WAS YOU HOLDING. I LOOKED AT THAT BOOK YOU HOLD. LOOKED AT ME WITH A CONFIOUS LOOKED
YOU SMILED AND WALK AWAY.
THERE IS A NOTES IN THAT BOOKS, IT IS FUNNY THAT I LEAVE A NOTE THERE STATING THAT " IF YOU FOUND THIS BOOK, PLEASE DON'T BUY THIS I WILL COME BACK FOR THIS BOOK ON WEDNESDAY BUT IF YOU WANT THIS PLEASE AFTER YOU FINISH THIS BOOK CAN I BUY IT TO YOU? THIS IS MY CELL NUMBER 09123465367 – KEN WITH A SMILING FACE EMOJI"
I HEARD A BELL OF THE DOOR AND YOU ARE NOT HERE IN THE STORE.
I GO HOME AND IM PLAYING THE LOVING GUITAR THAT I WAS PLAYING TO YOU EVERY TIME YOU FEEL HURT.
AFTER 3 DAY I RECEIVE A CALL AND YOU WANT TO MEET US ON THE SAME STORE
I GET THERE 5 MINUTES EARLIER AND YOU COME THERE 5 MINUTES LATE YOU GREETED ME OF YOUR SMILE AND A SWEET HELLO.
YOU TOLD ME THAT I WAS VERY FUNNY THAT I WROTE THAT ON THAT BOOK.
IM PAYING THE BOOK BUT YOU SAID IT MINE YOU JUST BORROWED THAT FROM ME. I WAS SO GLAD BUT SHY.
YOU TOLD ME IF I WAS FREE FOR TODAY I SAID YES BUT ACTUALLY, I GOT A PART-TIME ON THAT DAY.
WE WHEN TO THE AMUSEMENT PARK, WE ATE COTTON CANDY AND ICE CREAM YOU FAVORITE SWEETS. WE RODE A ROLLER COASTER THAT I GET VERY DIZZY THAT YOU ARE LAUGHING HARD TO ME.
WE WATCHED THE CIRCUS, PLAY IN THE SNOW WORLD, WE GO TO A PHOTO BOOTH THAT WE IMPERSONATE SOME OF THE DISNEY PRINCESS.
BEING WITH YOU IS LIKE WE ALREADY BEEN KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR SO LONG. I DON'T KNOW BUT MY HEART IS POUNDING SO FAST
THAT WAS A BEST DAY WITH YOU, DON'T HAD A CHANCE TO SAID THIS CAUSE I WAS SO SHY.
I DON'T WANT TOEND THAT DAY BUT WE CROSSED OUR WAY TO GO HOME IN THE DIFFERENT ROAD. YOU SAID TILL WE MEET AGAIN
I DON'T HAD ANY NUMBER OR CONTACT TO YOU, YOU ONLY GOT MINE SO I WAIT. I WAIT TO YOU
THREE DAYS LATER I RECEIVED A CALL FROM YOU AND YOU WANT TO GO FOR A ROAD TRIP. I GOT MY DRIVER LICENSE SO I THINK WE CAN DO THAT. THIS IS YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO, RIGHT? TO FORGET EVERYTHING
WE DO A ROAD TRIPS FOR 2 NIGHTS WE WHEN TO BEACH, WE WHEN TO VERY FAR AND WE ATE SNACK ON THE DRIVE THRU I WAS DRIVING AND AWAKE FOR THAT WHOLE NIGHT.
THEN YOU SAID, YOU WANT TO DO ALL THE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO MAYBE BECAUSE SOME YOU CANT ABLE TO THAT AGAIN. I WAS LAUGHING TO AND YOU LAUGH TOO, THAT WAS A BEST LAUGH.
YOU LOOK AT THE STARS AND YOU SHOUTING, I WANT TO DO THIS FOREVER. I SEE A SAD EYES ON YOU BUT YOU SMILING. I DON'T KNOW IF THAT WAS A SERIOUS STATEMENT
I WAS LOOKING ON YOU WHILE YOU LOOKING FOR THE STARS THEN YOU SUDDENLY HUG ME.
AND YOU SAID "THANK YOU VERY MUCH" AND YOU DECIDE TO GO HOME
ON OUR WAY HOME YOU ALL SLEPT AND LOOKED TIRED.
YOU AWAKE AND YOU SAID THE ADRESS OF YOUR HOME,
YOU GOT A HUGE HOUSE THEN YOU FATHER WAS IN THE FRONT DOOR. APPROACHING ME SO NICE BUT I SAID THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO INSIDE YOU HOME CAUSE YOU LOOKS OS TIRED.
I LEAVE THE CAR THAT WE USED. I WALKED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
IT WAS SO FUN TO BE WITH YOU,
TWO DAY LATER YOU CALLED ME AGAIN AND YOU SAID THAT YOU WANT TO BE HERE IN MY APARTMENT
YOU SAID THAT YOU ARE IN THE BOOKSTORE RIGHT NOW SO I GOT THERE FASTER THAN I CAN
"HEY!" YOU SAID
I HOLDING 2 CUPS OF COFFEE.
YOU GIVE THE ONE TO ME AND I SAID THANK YOU
YOU SAID YOU WANT TO WALK TO THE WAY TO MY APARTMENT
YOU TELLING ME A LOT OF STORY ABOUT YOUR LIFE, IT IS INTERESTING, VERY INTERESTING.
UNTIL WE REACH OUR APARTMENT, YOU WAS AMAZED THAT I WAS LIVING ON MY OWN. YOU SEE MY GUITAR THERE.
YOU WANT ME TO PLAY THAT TO YOU
I DID
I PLAY "FOREVER AND ALWAYS"
YOU LOVE THIS SONG.
SO YOU FEEL ASLEEP AT MY BED. YOU LOOK LIKE AN ANGEL I WANT TO LOOK AT YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS
I AWAKE TOO IN THE SEATING THE FLOOR AND MY FACE IS NEAR TO YOU AND FOUND YOU ARE ALREADY AWAKE LOOKING AT ME
YOU SAID YOU WANT ME AS ALWAYS.
I WAS BLUSHING AND YOU HUG ME AND YOU LAUGHING SO HARD AGAIN
WE LAUGH AND LAUGH UNTIL YOU DECIDE YOU WANT TO GO HOME
SO I BRING YOU TO YOUR HOME YOU KISS ME AND SAID GOODBYE
I WAS SMILING ON MY WAY HOME
SO I WAIT AGAIN FOR YOU CALL UNTIL ITS LAST IN A MONTH NO PHONE CALLS AND TEXT MESSAGE
I CALL YOU BUT NO ONE PICKING IT
I VISITED YOUR HOME AND YOU FATHER WELCOME ME INSIDE
HE CALLED YOU BUT I HEARD YOU SCREAMING AND CRYING UPSTAIRS YOU FATHER AND MOTHER RUNNING UPSTAIRS
I WENT TO AND I FOUND OUT YOU IN THE FLOOR. CRYING AND YOU LOOKED PALE.
YOU MOTHER HUG YOU AND YOUR FATHER BROUGHT A OXYGEN TO YOU. YOU LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED EVEN YOU GOT TEARS IN YOUR EYES MESSY HAIR MESSY SURROUNDINGS
I WAS SHOCKED ON YOUR SITUATION, I WAS FROST ON MY POSITION UNTIL YOU FATHER CARRY YOU TO YOUR BED AND I STARTED TO CRY I RUN TO YOU AND HUG YOU
THA WAS A HIDDEN SECRET OF YOUR SMILES AND LAUGH AND BRIGHFUL PERSONALITY.
YOU GOT A LUNG CANCER.
YOU DON'T EVEN TELL ME THAT YOU GOT THAT
I WAS IN YOU ROOM WAITING FOR YOU TO CALM.
YOU SAID THAT SOONER YOU GET DIED.
THAT WAS A DAY THAT I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER.
I WRITING THIS LETTER TO YOU! I HOPE YOU ALREADY READING THIS. RIGHT NOW. I KNOW YOU ARE OKAY NOW.
NO MORE PAIN.
- KEN (1998)
THIS IS THE LETTER I FOUND ON THE BOOK OF NORWEGIAN WOODS IT IS IN WRITTEN ON THE WHITE PAPER. I BOUGHT THIS BOOK ON THE ANTIQUE ON THE 10TH STREET.
I WENT HOME AND MY MOTHER WAS COOKING OUR MEALS.
I LEAVE THE BOOK AT THE TABLE TO GET SOME JUICE AT THE REFRIGERATOR. I TURNED BACK AND FOUND MY MOTHER HOLDING THAT LETTER IN THE BOOK.
SHE IS CRYING WHILE READING THE BOOK.
SHE LOOKED AT ME AND HUG ME
WHERE DO YOU FIND THIS BOOK HONEY? SHE ASKED
IN THE ANTIQUE STORE IT IS PRELOVED
SHE IS SPEECHLESS.
I GUIDE HER TO SEAT ON THE CHAIR
I WAIT FOR HER TO SPEAK
A FEW MINUTES SHE STARTED TO SPEAK
YOU KNOW, THIS BOOK IS BELONG TO A BOOKSTORE IN THE 20TH STREET AND I SAW IT ON THE PRICE TAG AT THE BACK
THIS IS ONCE HOLDS AND READ BY SOMEONE I LOVE
BY THE SOMEONE, A REASON WHY I STILL ALIVE
KEN? WHY? WHY WOULD YOU KILLED YOURSELF TO KEEP US ALIVE?
SHE STATES THAT
AND HOLDING HER CHEST
SHE LOOKS AT ME
AND HOLD MY FACE
YOUR EYES IS IS HIM
YOU LIPS
YOU ARE THE CARBON COPY OF HIM
HE IS THE REASON WHY WE ARE ALIVE TODAY
I WAS CONFUSE
YOU FATHER KILLED HIMSELF JUST TO KEEP US ALIVE.
MY LUNG IS NOT MINE IT IS HIM.
WHEN HE FOUND OUT THAT IAM PREGNANT TO YOU AT THAT NIGHT WE FOUND HIM DEAD IN THE APARTMENT WITH A LETTER
PLEASE GET MY LUNGS AND GIVE IT TO MY GIRL AND OUR BABY. THEY NEED THIS THAN I
THANK YOU.
SO I HUGED MY MOTHER I WILL BE A SON THAT WILL CONTINUE THAT OF MY FATHER TO YOU MOM! I WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER LOVE YOU AND PROTECT YOU, MOM!
