Fill the silence | Itafushi

Can I Touch You?

TW: swearing, signs of rape and abuse and mentions of self-harm (bandages on wrists)

The detailed mentions of the self-harm wounds will be in between ###

One year and eight months before the day

Megumi's POV

I am nervous.
Why am I nervous? 

Perhaps because I am afraid he is not here.
I mean if he isn't, I will probably assume that something bad has happened and I will end up having a panic attack and give Gojo even more work...Shit. 

I take a deep breath, looking at the wooden door in front of me and reach out to knock. 
I stay like that for a couple of minutes, just trying to convince myself that even if he's not here, everything will be fine.

After a while I take a deep breath and knock on the door.

Nothing. 

I don't want to be pushy but I'm too worried to care about it right now, so I end up knocking again. 

Nothing. 

Maybe if I call him I can hear his phone.
I go to take out my phone when I realize that I forgot my backpack in Gojo's car. Great. This couldn't get any worse.

After a while I end up sitting at his door with my knees close to my chest playing with the bandage tapes on my wrists. 

I'm really pathetic. 

I lean my head on door, closing my eyes and letting my thoughts drown me slowly.

I don't know how much time I spent here, the only thing I know was that it was already dark outside and there were no signs of Yuji. 

Why did I have to meet him? If I hadn't gone looking for him that day, none of this would have happened... a sigh escapes my lips. 

"Fu...Fushiguro?" 

My head looks up quickly when I hear the voice I wanted so badly. 

He was there, in front of me alive and breathing. 

I get up quickly and look him in the eye.
The relief I felt a few seconds ago disappeared as soon as I saw the state he was in. He had tears-red eyes and... handprints? and some other red and purple marks on his neck. 

"Itadori what..." I looked at him. I didn't know what to say. 

My heart broke in a thousand pieces when I saw a tear run down his face. 

I took a step towards but his eyes widen and he quickly took a step back, as if he didn't even have to think about it. 

I quickly take a step back giving him space.

Apparently he realized that he stepped back because as soon as his eyes met mine he came towards me and hugged me with all the strength he had, letting the tears run down my shoulder and wet the shirt I was wearing. 
I still hadn't moved, it looked like he was hugging a statue

"Ita...Can I touch you?"  I asked hesitantly, the way he reacted before I don't want to scare him by hugging him as well. 

He just nodded and tightened his embrace.
After that, I put my hand on his back, trying to give him some comfort and the other on his pink hair, making a light caress. 

After a few minutes I speak almost in a wisper

"Can we go inside?"  he nods again without saying a word, breaking the hug and taking out the keys to open the door, using the sleeve of his shirt to wipe away some tears.