"It's difficult to smile, my cheeks are so heavy"
"Don't be a killjoy, just smile naturally!"
You wish it was only because of your chubby cheeks that it' s difficult to smile. Your heart also sinks and becomes heavier when you smile. It's a challenge to plaster the widest grin portraying happiness in front of everyone every single day of your life.
"Your smile is ugly."
You wish you could get those words out of your head.
"I'm tired of people asking me to smile,,, I'm not happy. Why should I smile??? Am I not allowed to express my own sadness and grief???? I just recovered from a bad, dark place where only grief was present and I haven't full even recovered yet and you tell me that my smile is UGLY?!?!?!?"
You screamed those words so loud in your head every time someone asked you to smile...nobody heard it. It's all in your head anyways. You grew tired of having to express happiness and ONLY HAPPINESS. You just hated it when people get concerned about you.
Maybe you were just a crybaby,,, a selfish attention seeker.
"No, no I'm not like that no,,,"
"SAY CHEESE"
*a camera flashes*
