Rapping for a reason

finding myself

     Growing up having to live off of food stamps really sucks ya know?

And I always said that I would make it out of that type of lifestyle because there is always a way out of just about anything!

     In the sixth grade I found  my way out

I started listening to old school rap and I started to rap along to the songs I heard.. eventually I started making my own lyrics to these songs. Like a remix cover.

     I wanted to show the whole world what I had just discovered!

The day I went to school to show what I had learned.. was probably the worst day in my life so far

     I rapped for my friend and one of my bullies heard it and during lunch

Him and his buddies came up to me and started freestyling at me

Just dissing me and people gathered around laughing at me

I didn't know what to do.. so I ran away crying and his buddies followed me and kept dissing. Every day he'd ask if I'd want to rap battle him. And I would say "no" all the time and he'd call me a pussy for not battling

     I then became very depressed.. on top of that.. I had to worry about being bullied everyday. Fast forward three years of bullying.

It's summer and people have been sending me hate mail on all social media

And I wanted to kill myself.. I grabbed a kitchen knife and held it to my throat crying for help. Then.. I put the knife down and thought.. I don't need this.. I'm better than this.. and I'll prove it..

     First day of highschool comes by and as I walk through the doors I can feel people starring and giggling and pointing.. I just try to push it away like I don't see it. At the end of the long never ending hallway I see the main bully in my life. You know. The "rapper"

His buddy started to beat box and Damien "my bully rapper" says

"You want to go again bitch" people laughed.. I swallowed my saliva and said.. "yeah if you're ready" people got quiet and Damien looked shocked.

Everyday he asked to battle.. id go home and practice my Rapping and freestyling. Damien told his friend to drop a beat and people gathered.

He started to dis ad I stood there.. after he was done everyone looked at me and his buddy kept the beat going .. so I began "look, you a stupid lil punk, you took one step but I took a big jump, watch yo lil crew get stomped by a king and thats me, fuck yo words, and fuck yo hate. If you wanna fuckin play I got five fuckin knuckles for ya motha fuckin face, this is my school and I own this place"

Damien looked embarrassed and the crowd was silent.

He stepped forward and asked me if I wanted to fight him.

Everyone started to chant Fight! Fight! Fight!

He threw the first punch and i tackled him and started beating the shit out of him! He told me to get off and I did.. he got up crying and then the principal came and took us to his office.

We both got suspension in school.

    Me and Damien surprisingly became best friends and we rap together everyday .

Short book I know but it's cool. Haha