Unspoken Words Of An Ambivert

I Stay

3/5/2021

I stay to hear the laughter of my friends as I make jokes.

I stay to hear my teacher laugh at our dumb jokes.

I stay because of my friends and how fun we have every summer.

I stay to go cosplaying with my friends during the weekend at the mall.

I stay to see my sister smile at me after school every day.

I stay for my friend's and I's inside jokes.

I stay to hear my boyfriend call me Baby Bird whenever he greets me when I call him, to hear his voice and hear how much he cares about me.

I stay to make jokes with my friends and wheeze at their jokes and how dumb they are.

I stay to hear my friends compare eachother on the gay-o-meter.

I stay to have my friends compare my height to each other to measure stuff

I stay because I can't stand imagining how much pain my friends and family would be if I died.

I stay because I wouldn't be able to imagine my sister asking my mom where I am and how come I'm not coming home.

I stay because I can't stand imagining if my friends stopped being friends because imagining me being there, cracking jokes, and making them all laugh, hurt so much.

I stay because I don't want to imagine my teachers thinking class is too quiet without me there.

I stay because I don't want to know my mom would cry every night about how much she wasn't able to save me.

I stay because I don't want my friends to be so upset about how they wouldn't be able to live without me and how everything is worse without me.

I stay because i wouldn't be able to die knowing that Kried would probably never forgive himself for letting me do this and not being there for me when i needed him the most