I am dedicating this chapter to, Yorkielover. Thanks for the comment love!. Ill keep dedicating chapters to you beautiful people! :).
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(NIALL'S POV)
I seen the fear in his eyes it hurt that he didn't even try to hide it off his face. He ran from me but i guess its for the best. I don't understand why he followed me or how he even knew were i would be. I didn't care I couldn't make myself care about any of it. I knew he would tell the others and Liam would be hugging him right now. Sometimes i crave for that hug but i know ill never get one again. I don't deserve it, Me getting that hug going close enough to them to get it would mean pain for them. I could never bring them that pain I knew he still watched. I see his reflection in the water laughing down at me. He laughs at my pain he laughs at me slowly loosing myself slowly dying. That's what he wants though, wants me dead my own dad. I think about it how much easier everything will be but one thing keeps me going and that's not letting him win. I would get away as soon as school is done and i save enough money. I don't care what i do to get it I would start over have the life I use to want and now that harry knows i might have to leave sooner then planned. I knew i should have left this spot the night zayn came asking question but how was i suppose to know harry would find out to. The question is would he care enough to try and help? I didn't think he would after all the horrible things that were said, After i left him when he needed me the most. So i was surprise to hear rushed whispered conversations coming toward me. I could pick their voices out of anywhere I honestly didn't think they would come. After all i did they still didn't understand or listen to me. I knew i should panic run away or something but instead i gave in to the numbness that always awaited me. i pushed everything away and stood there staring in one direction not intending to move, speak or anything. I felt them get closer being this way always made me more aware of my surrounds yet so far away from them. I could feel their gazes on me I didn't want to see their reactions I didn't want to even chance caring that i made them scared.
"Niall?"His voice was nothing more then an echo but i still new who it was, Liam. I didn't blink or turn toward him I kept looking forward thinking hoe now would be a good time to be at the bottom of the water.
"Niall can you hear me?"Nothing maybe they will go away if I say nothing. I could only hope but of course he only came closer.
"Niall its Liam please answer me?"Again nothing I hoped my silence would run them away. I heard him sigh.
"Just look at me or something. I have to know you understand me or ill uh I will be forced to call an ambulance."I knew his game but i knew he would do it if he truly believed i was harmed in anyway. I closed my eyes before turning around I knew what i looked like but i couldn't let myself begin to care I couldn't step out of the little numbness i was holding onto I would regret it if i did. I know ill scare him but maybe its what he needs to see. So i opened my eyes now facing him. Just as i expected he jumped away.
"N-Niall?"I just stood there staring at him but weird thing was i only seen his outline I haven't really seen someones face in awhile except one Zayn. I wasn't sure why i seen him and not past him like i do everyone else but i didn't question it I don't question anything anymore.
"A-Are you hurt?"Didn't he understand I wanted to be left alone.? If he see them here they could get hurt. I don't want them hurt that's the whole point of this thing. I knew if I didn't talk he wouldn't leave and I knew I would have to hurt them again with my words.
"Niall horan If you don't answer him!" God i missed Louis high pitched voice. But i couldn't think that way. I looked away before i opened my mouth.
