Four Tris One Shots

A Promise

I stand at the train station waiting for the train to arrive. Shuddering when a cold breeze hits my face that is the only part left uncovered due to the cold winter that is moved into Chicago for weeks. Tobias immediately wraps his arm around me and pulls me flush to his side in an attempt to warm me. I look up into his deep blue orbs and sent him a grateful smile which he reoccupies immediately.
I am still amazed by the fact that I am the only one who can put a smile on his face so easily. Since the war shook our city to the core and we discovered that our whole city was an experiment the things settled down. The Buro had made enemies inside and outside the fence and that's why the project was ended by the government. Chicago is now a normal city or as normal as you can call a city with this past.  Because the city is working like every other city with a mayor, normal jobs, and without the factions but I don't think the people need a lot more time to let the past rest and start their new life without the factions. Since all this happened Tobias and I mended our relationship and settled down in a neighborhood near the Ferris wheel but Tobias needs time to trust our friends and even though the war only increased his distrust of people, he works on it and is at least comfortable around our friends. But this gorgeous smile on his face that I love so much can only be put on his face by me or our little daughter.
Crystal Eaton the light of our life was born two years after everything settled down and is now about one year old. Right now, she is with Uriah and Christina. They started dating two years ago and live next door to us. Today Tobias and I went out to the old Amity place to attended a funeral. It was sad but I know that it was time for Alicia to go she was 80 years old and we both have grown attached to her these past years and hoped she wouldn't suffer. So, we were relieved to hear that she fell asleep peacefully even though we were sad. At the moment we wait for the train to arrive but we hear the voice of a man that there is going to be a train with supplies and asks us to stay back.
When Tobias pulls me a few steps back with his arm around my shoulder I suddenly flinch. A few meters away from us a young man has punched the wall and is now sitting on the floor with his head in his hands. I extract myself from Tobias's arm and want to go towards the man but Tobias grabs my hand and I turn around. I give him a pleading look and he lets my hand go albeit a little bit hesitant as he eyes the man. I give him a knowing look and say "Stay back, just going to ask if everything is alright." He sighs but nods. It is not like he doesn't want to help other people. The Abnegation in him wants to help the man with whatever problems he is facing but he is still careful when it comes to an unknown person. I turn around and walk towards the man. "Hello? What's wrong?" I ask him. I thought it was ridiculous to ask him whether he was okay or not because clearly, he was not okay. But the guy just stands up and suddenly I hear the sound of the approaching train loudly. It all happens so fast I can't even comprehend how it happens. The guy walks straight in the direction of the tracks and I realize what he wants to do.
As soon as I am able to move I run towards him and right before the train races through the station I grab him by his hips and throw him to the ground. I hear a scream over the noises of the train and feel the gust of wind right over my head. It is then when I realized what happened. He wanted to kill himself and I just nearly died to rescue him. I suddenly feel uncomfortable draped over this stranger and start to pick myself up.
I look down at him and it's the first time I really look at his face. He has brown short hair and striking green eyes. In his eyes I can so many emotions I can't really place them. I see anger, fear, regret, thankfulness and so much more. He is tensed. A group of people has gathered around us. An older man knees beside the man. I recognize him from my time in Abnegation. Suddenly I register that I was not alone at this station and lookup. There stands Tobias tensed and his fist and his jaw clenched as he does so often when he tries to hide his emotion or his anger. But he doesn't fool me. I know he is angry and hurt but more importantly, I must have scared the shit out of him. I don't know what to do so I just stand there and look at him. He has tears in his eyes. It is a rare occasion. He makes it a point to live up to the image of Four when we are not at our home or with our friends. The fierce and fearless warrior but when it comes to my safety this mask crumbles. After a few seconds or was it minutes of staring at each other I feel tears prickle in my eyes as well because I know I broke my promise.
And it wasn't even my intention to break it. I promised him to never risk my life again or at least not as reckless as I did it after my parents' death. But the difference between him and me is that when he sees suffering he can still be rational and know it wasn't his fault. He can detach his emotions and the only ones he really cares about are Crystal, our friends, and I. Because he never felt like anyone cared for him either during his terrific childhood. I can't do that I always seek the blame in myself when I see someone suffer. And I would have felt like it was my fault if the man had died.
Suddenly he takes three big steps and engulfs be in a bone-crushing hug. His nose buried in my hair as if I would slip away if he didn't hold me tight enough. "Why?" he whispers and even in the whisper I hear his voice break and it feels like my heart shattered into a million pieces, hearing and seeing him so weak. I don't want him to be strong all the time. It is impossible but still every time he cries something in me breaks because he has always been my rock so strong and determined as nothing could hurt him and it hurts me that I am the one who can hurt him with my actions even though I don't want to. I never wanted to. "Sorry?" someone breaks the silence between us. It is an officer, ex Dauntless of course. Most of the old Dauntless chose a job at the police or something like that. "Can you give us a short impression of what happened here?" I look behind him and see an ambulance transporter and next to it the man. He is crying. I tell the officer what happened and we miss our train until everything is clarified.
Tobias and I catch the next one. But we don't speak and I know I am in deep trouble with him.  We walk home in silence and he stares at the ground. When we pass Christina's House I protest because we have to pick up Crystal but he just grabs me by my arm and drags me a few steps into our home.
For a minute we just stare at each other. "What?" I snap because I am irritated by his behavior. That was the last drop I know it. "Are fucking serious! You just jumped in front of a train and that is what you say" He yells. The calm Four is long gone. "You know what you promised me after the war.  You promised me you would never risk your life like that ever again! But you just jump in front of a train to rescue a stranger!" I want to say something but he just continues and takes a few steps towards me until I am pressed between him and the wall. "You know if you died that I would be the next one under this train." I flinch and suddenly I don't see fear and anger in his face anymore. No, his eyes look terrified. I have never flinched under his touch. He always feared that he would become like his father and it took a lot of time to get him to understand that he is nothing like him. But now I am here and flinch away from him. He looks ashamed. He stumbles backward and falls to the ground. "No Tobias." I try "No get away from me!" he breaths "Go please, I don't want to hurt you" He cries. "Please, please" I just step closer to him and get on my knees beside me. I take his face in both my hands even though he tries to resist at first. "Hey, hey stop look at me. I didn't flinch because I was scared that you would hurt me." "So you just flinched with no reason. I don't believe you, Tris." He says his voice harsh. "Tobias I was never afraid of you and I never will be. It is what you said that you would kill yourself." Now I start to cry. "I... just the thought of you laying there dead... under a train...I ...I can't" Now I am full-on sobbing but I don't care. I never want to see him dead. I couldn't handle it. "Hey, hey, hey, shhhhhh" he takes me in his arms "I am here I am fine" He smoothest me.
Still, I can't calm down. "I am so sorry, when you said that I realized how you felt when I nearly jumped in front of that train. And I couldn't handle it. I am so so sorry." I bury my face in his neck and he picks me up and I end up in his lap while we both calm down. "I just thought that you were scared of me when you flinched. That was the worst moment of my life. Thinking you were scared of me. I thought I turned to be like Marcus I..." but I interrupt him "I know you would never to that everything you have done today proves this." And I feel like it is the first time he truly believes me. "I love you" "I love you too" He pulls me closer to him and fits his mouth to mine. We kiss for a while and I feal  myself get lost in his soft warm lips. He reluctantly pulls back. "We have to get Crystal. But promise me that you will always think of me and Crystal when something like this again." I smile "Yes" This simple word is enough because he knows that I mean it.
He smiles and pulls me up and, in his arms, again. He looks down in my eyes and I see love and devotion pour from his and I smile up at him. And he presses a kiss to my forehead before we go to pick up our daughter.