Sweet Farewell (JENLISA ONESHOT)

Behind The Clouds (Finale)

•Jennie POV•

After our misunderstanding that night, I sent her a short video contains of collection 'I love you' images the next morning. We solved our problem and we're good again now.

Honestly, deep down in my heart, there still lays a fear feeling of loving someone. My past is still haunting me. Why didn't it leave me?

So stupid me, me and Jisoo was over. Me and her is done. She broke our relationship when I was feeling my love for her grew bigger. But why I still have this feeling for her?

Why this feeling just won't die? Why is that I need to love her that much where in fact she left me in pain? But I don't have any intention to be back with her again. I realized for all the pain I felt, I won't dive into that situation anymore. For all the love I have poured into her? I won't waste my love again. I'm afraid she would just hurt me again. I don't allow that anymore.

I don't want Jisoo anymore.

But the wound I bear is too deep, maybe that's why it's hard to healed. Although now I already have someone. A beautiful girl with beautiful soul. A kindhearted human. The one who loves me so unconditionally. The one whom I consider deserve to have someone better than me.

Her past gave her pain. And if now I do the same, or even make it worse, Oh how bad I am.

I love Lisa. Yes, I love her. I love how the way she cares for me. I appreciate her love and I do feel sparkle but still I feel scared. When I accepted her, I do have feelings for her but still I can't get rid of the feeling of being scared like what if she left me just like what Jisoo did to me? I don't wanna lose her. I'm trying to hold on her, but it's just I'm still scared of having a serious love relationship.

I wouldn't make her like a toy. I don't want to play people's feeling especially her who did nothing but to make me feel special, happy and feel loved.

"Honey, are you okay?"

Her soft caress on my cheek snapped me from my reverie. I jolted but then I nodded and smiled at her.

"Uhum, I'm okay, hon."

"Then eat your foods. I see you were staring blankly at your foods and didn't touch it. That's why I asked you, are you okay?"

"Yes, hon. I'm okay." I held her hand to reassure her that I'm fine. "And why don't you eat?"

"I lost my appetite."

"Why? Are you sick?"

"I'm feeling weak and sleepy."

"Hon, lets go home now and I'll let you rest."

"No, babe. Later, eat your foods first."

"Hon, I care for you a lot like how you care for me. I'm worried about you. I don't wanna you get sick."

"Just feed me first, and we're gonna go home after."

Lisa is sometimes being clingy or silly cute sweet possessive. She admitted it will happen mostly when she's missing me. And I told her that I don't see any problems in it. Couples do that. And I can handle her annoying ass.

Like I said, I don't wanna hurt Lisa. I was already left behind, when she loves me that much, while I still couldn't give much love as much as she gave me. I even told her If she feels like I don't give her enough love then just tell me, I dont want to be unfair. I'll try my best to make her feel love just like the way she made me feel.
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One night, we're having argument again. I don't know how this argue started. But the problem is still the same. She feels that I don't give her enough love. She still can't feel my love for her.