Not Another Love

Chapter 5: When Night Falls

It's late at night almost 10:30 when Carsen gets a call. His sister was in a car crash. He had a pretty close relationship with his sister but they weren't best friends. Sometimes they would fight and they wouldn't talk to each other for a day or something but this time it was different. He hadn't talked to her in 3 months. He never liked to talk about it. I'm not even sure what she did or what he did that there in this huge fight about. I know it's hard for him since he hasn't talked about her in awhile or really even heard any news. Their not sure if she's going to be perfectly okay yet. His Mom called first but told him to stay. I told him he should go and be there for her but he said he knew she wouldn't want him around whatever that meant.

Everyone's lives are so messed up you can't expect everything to always be perfect everything has flaws. I mean everyone always thinks just because, you get good grades have good friends and a boyfriend that everything is just peachy. But in reality it feels like nothing is right. Nothing is where it's suppose to be. Like the puzzle is done but it's permanently missing a piece. I think that everyone feels at some point in there life that they just screw up everything. And then they cry about and complain to there best friend or boyfriend and everything becomes better. But what if it doesn't become better anymore what if it stopped working. If our sadness and depression just stayed forever, and we just had to deal with it. Deal with our insecurity and flaws like they were ten times worse than they actually were...

We are sitting outside. I wrap my tiny hand around him to tell him that it will be okay. Because it's always just going to be... Okay.

The waves are crashing and my eyes are closing. My mind is drifting. We lay down on the small towel, my eyes shut and I drift off ever so slowly and silently.

He flips over to the other side and wraps his arms around my waist. He nuzzles his head into my neck and I feel warm and fuzzy inside. At least for that small moment I do.

" I love you Colette"

It was quite rare that he called me by my first name but I didn't even mind it when he said it. I turn my head and see his eyes are closed and hands tightly wrapped around my petite body. I'm awaken by the waves again the water almost got to close. Luckily I was still dry. Carsen was gone... I was alone again. I quickly got up admiring the beautiful sun rises. I started looking for him but he was know where to be found. I run inside to find my phone. His things are gone. I assume he went to see his sister which brings me joy. However I wish I could have come along for the ride too. Maybe it's best that he handles this on his own. I call to Josh and ask him if he heard Carson leave he said he didn't hear from him since yesterday. It's just odd he left so suddenly. So abruptly.. It's a shame the vacation had to end this way. I look outside the window and see his car. Where the hell could he have gone without a car. I mean there is the bus but if he has a car why not use it. I walk outside bare footed wrapping around one of Carson's old sweat shirt to keep me warm. I open the door to try and find the keys. Normally he keeps them in the little glove compartment.

However, instead when I look in I find something else.

Something that's not Carson. That shouldn't be Carson. There are little bags filled with white powder. I know to well that it's cocaine. I can't help but be disappointed as a tear forms I try to blink them back.

where has he gone.