Alizah Miller
My heart rate is increasing rapidly and my blood is starting to boil. This asshole is standing infront of me trying to manipulate me like he did all these years. I'm a little offended that he think i'm still the girl who's mind can still be fucked with . Ironic isn't it.
" I don't know why i love you so much but i really do. I know it's wrong in so many ways but it's just something about you. " , This motherfucker. Again & again. It's the same cycle you know. Just made my skin crawl , love me? How the fuck can you love me.
Seven years later
I literally cannot go to work without making coffee. Bella knows this but she continuously complains as if that's going to change shit. I fucking hate people who complain but bella , she's my bestfriend so i have to tolerate her. Laurene have a couple of things for me to complete this week so i can be a little late. It won't harm anyone.
I make my way to the bathroom because i feel like i'm about to shit my intensities out. Fuck i hate walking up these stairs , it's like i'm running a damn marathon. Why is my bathroom so messy?
Bella does this shit every morning. She uses my bathroom because the mirror is better. I don't know how that works because a mirror is a mirror but i wouldn't know because i'm not interested in that beauty shit.
I quickly pull up my hair & start undressing myself. I normally just take a shower , brush my teeth & throw on some clothes but i've been trying to be more productive. Thankfully , my stomach stopped aching because i would've been in bed all day complaining instead of getting some work done.
After taking a quick shower , i realized that i didn't feel like doing all that extra shit. I rapidly brushed my teeth and threw on a oversized sweatshirt and some high boots. People say i don't dress professionally but they can fuck off. They don't know shit about style.
My hair was tangled so i quickly combed it & pushed it back into a quick bun. I normally would throw it in a ponytail but i felt like trying the infamous Hailey Bieber slick back ponytail today.
I grab my purse on the edge of the table & slowly make my way out the house. Maybe if i take more time then Laurene will call me & tell me she doesn't need me today. I push my keys through the door and of course it gets jammed. After violently fighting the door it finally locked and i rushed to my car because i was extremely late.
Driving was never one of my favorite things. But sadly it's apart of life and i have do this nearly everyday. My job was only about 10 minutes away so before i pulled off i had to pick which song i'm driving to today.
Eh i'll just listen to my everyday playlist.
Hey what's up, it's been a while
I quickly turn up the radio because this is my fucking song. I back out my parking space before pulling my windows down so everyone can hear how amazing this song is.
Talking 'bout it's not my style
Thought I'd see what's up
While I'm lighting up
" It's cold hearted , cold-hearted " , this song makes me feel alive. What did we do to deserve such great music. I get lost in the song and it was only minutes before i pulled into my parking space. I sat in the car until the song was done. I replayed it about three times because it's that fucking good.
I grab my purse and push through the double doors to enter Laurene's office. The lobby was so busy. I heard everyone is fixing up the building because they have a new investor.
Laurene isn't in her office so i go through a couple of papers and write down what i need to complete. I leave a note on her desk letting her know that i'm completing some errands & after i'm done i won't be returning. Most bosses would already fire me but Laurene & I are pretty close. We both do things very differently but she doesn't mind.
I pull out my phone to call Bella because i haven't seen her since last night. Of course when i decide to be a good friend she doesn't answer me. Let me just leave her a text.
Alizah : Call me when you get the chance !!
I put away my phone and decided that i want to get everything done by 4pm today. I look through the list of things i need to do and they are very simple tasks. I needed to print some papers & do some research on this company.
I make my way to the library and sign into Laurene's microsoft account so i can get access to her documents. I printed extra copies in case one of us lose one. Thankfully , i can do the research on the company at home. I grab the papers and place them in the backseat before pulling off.
My phone rings while i'm on the highway so i reach into my bag with one hand while keeping the other on the wheel. Luckily enough i'm a pro at driving. Shit it's Bella. I quickly answer the phone in rage because what the hell was taking her so long to call me back.
" Bella where the hell have you been? " , Yeah of course my voice squeaks in the end so now i don't sound serious. " I left out early because i had some errands , i'm sorry that i left your bathroom a mess this morning. I was in a rush. " , she explained thinking it would change shit. Boo fucking who she still could've texted me.
" Whatever bella you do it every morning , anyways i have to do some research on some company that Laurene is partnering with so what time will you be home? " , I haven't ate since this morning because Bella didn't make breakfast and i depend on her for meals. If it was up to me i would order in everyday.
" Maybe around 2 , i'll grab some sushi on my way home . Is that fine? " , I rarely eat sushi anymore ever since i tried the raw one but it's still one of my
favorite foods. It really just depends on which one you get.
" Yeah that'll be great , get me the tempura & california roll. Make sure they give you eel sauce because i cant eat sushi without it. " , I really can't. Bella swears that it's nasty because it tastes like eel but what did she expect. It's called eel sauce for a reason.
" Okay Alizah , can you please give my room a quick sweep through. I didn't get the chance to fix it up
this morning and i might have someone coming over later. " , She's murmurs in a baby voice thinking it'll make me say yes. I clean up her room on a daily basis so why not.
" Sure & who's coming over? I told you don't bring random boys over bell bell , it's very unsafe. We are literally two females living alone with no protection whatsoever. " , I refuse to die because someone decided they want to kill me. If i die , it's going to be in my own hands. Cant let anyone get one up on me.
She huffs and replies with a simple okay. I hang up the phone because i didn't feel like talking anymore and turned up the radio. They were playing bullshit so i just connected the aux & shuffled my playlist.
I wanna fuck you slow with the lights on (lights on, lights on, lights on)
" You're the only one i've got my sights on " , I backed up and nearly hit a car because i was distracted by how good i sounded. The library is only about 10 minutes away from my house. The good thing about New York is everything is in walking distance. Which makes it about 10 minutes in a car.
I have a concert in my car until i pull up to my apartment. I grab all my stuff and quickly head upstairs.
