"I'm going fucking crazy."
That's enough Harry. If you say anything like that again, don't expect some good.
I sat down and took a deep breath to try to calm down. I would rip my hair off if it would get rid of this Damian. Maybe if I would... maybe he'd go away? No don't be stupid Harry.
But I can try? Maybe it will hurt him if it hurts me?
I took a grip on my hair and my palms started to sweat.
"H-harry what are you doing?" Zayn said and I looked up at him and closed my eyes. I started pulling my hair lightly.
"Harry? W-why are you pulling your hair?" I ignored them and started to count down.
"10, 9, 8, 7, 6,--"
"Harry why are you--"
"5, 4, 3, 2, 1," I smiled.
"Here we go Damian." I pulled my hair so hard that I could feel my head pound and tears start to fall down.
"HARRY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING! STOP IT!" I ignored them once again.
"Get. Out. Of. My. HEAD!" I yelled and started taking all of my hair and pulling it again. I let out a whimper and I opened my eyes and noticed the boys weren't infront of me. They were by my side trying to calm me down, and Niall was trying to take my hands of my hair.
I shakily put my hands on the floor. And the boys noticed that I stopped...being a freaking maniac. I sighed loudly and put my face in my hands
You're so stupid.
Hearing something in your head is probably the most scariest thing in the world. It just... feels so real. It feels like an actual person is talking to you, you just don't see him.
I know for sure that I can't live like this forever. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't tell anyone about this or Damian kills the one I love the most. Or he'll just... kill me.
"Please Harry we're begging you, what the hell is going on?" The guys are making it so hard to not tell them.
Tell them that you haven't been sleeping much these couple of days. That will make them believe that you're okay.
I nooded.
I took my face out of my hands and tried to smile.
"I haven't been sleeping much these couple of days, I guess I'm just really, really tired." I said and yawned.
The boys looked at me weirdly.
"Harry. We've known eachother for almost five years. And I think in those five years I have gotten to get to know you. I know the diffrence beetween tired and sadness. And you Harry. You're not tired. Something is bothering you so much that you can't even watch TV without just... falling out or stop paying attention. You know that we're always there for you and no matter what happens... we're not going anywhere. We're here to stay and be here with you through every single thing every day. I know it gets a little tiring being always with us but think how lucky you are having the most 4 best friends in the world. Think about it buddy." I looked up at Louis surprised at his words and thankful. I really have the most best friends in the world.
"Louis. I get that you're trying to help, but I'm actually helping you. I am litteraly saving your life by not saying what's bothering me. If I would tell you what's wrong... I'm afraid that I will just die. I will just lose my breath and die. I don't want to leave you guys like that. I really don't." The guys looked at me sadly,
"What are we suppose to do then Harry?"
"Nothing. You can't do anything. I'm helpless."
"Is there a person who is trying to kill you?" Niall said.
"I don't know honestly." I don't know if Damian is a person or not.
"If you would tell us right now. Just right now would he/she/the kill us?"
"Yes." I said honest. But why can't I tell them though?
Are you really asking that? I'm never even lying when I tell you you're stupid.
I growled a little, I didn't even do it on purpose.
"Harry, is this a human?" I looked up at Zayn and kinda... I don't know... shocked?
"It's not a human, if it would be human it would definitely not be so... cruel, mean or horrible."
Oh little do you know that people are just as worse as me Harry. People are just as cruel and mean.
"Harry. Is that... thing here?"
"Oh Zayn. It's always here."
