Connection

The connection we've made

1: first off an connection could be made not only with your partner this connection can be made with anyone you choose and it may not be a real connection all the time but when you know you got a connection with someone you just know and when you think you have a connection with someone you would want to explore it and  see if the connection is real and can just tell that they are feeling the same thing you are without asking.

2: buckle up and keep an open mind while reading this. I have a real connection with a certain someone it's new & I've never experienced this type of connection before. it might not be love just yet but it's still wonderful . Basically we vibing :)

I am a bit of a hopeless romantic. I really do have faith and a belief in love, and when I love, I love hard.

[HOPELESS ROMANTIC] I am in love with love. I believe in fairy tails and love. I am definitely an idealist sentimental dreamer, imaginative and fanciful when you get to know me.

In the future I'll do a lot of romantic things for my partner and I know who I want in my future he's so great and an awesome writer.

{I believe in love at first sight} but I won't tell a person I love them first. Because of that. Ion believe in In a jump of faith ion want to get my heart broken .

There I was hanging out with this cute guy who had just unexpectedly showed up to my house today just watching movies with him in bed. All of a sudden I just got the feeling .
(not the connection just yet)
I had gotten aroused  just by looking at this cute guy on my bed so i did this.

Me:do you know what cuddling is

Cute guy: "no, I've never did anything like that before"

My slick self: "come here let me show you"

[REWIND] a couple hours before that scene we were bonding outside I don't remember exactly when but I was told that he's basically never done anything with anyone by him.

[fast forward & hit play] I'm a nice and a considerate guy, loving and just a teddy bear and that is comfy so I want to be exactly like that. so I'm asking like every ten minutes "are you comfortable" and making sure before I do ANYTHING I ask for permission like a gentleman is supposed to do. I'm a nice person in general but he makes me want to do better, be better, love myself and trust him.

So here We are laying down and I ask him to "turn around". Then I ask him politely can I kiss him and he was so nervous I can tell so it made scared and nervous.

After like several minutes later.

WE KISSED and then it hit me....(CONNECTION) (SPARK) (HAPPINESS) (love) I knew then I really wanted to be with him for the rest of my life, and the fact that we had an conversation before and we had a lot in common. He told me he didn't care about my size and then from that point on I was really thinking "this is the one"  of course we had just met so telling him he would probably think I'm crazy but hey we only got one life and I'm pretty sure he feels this connection also.

But here came the doubts....

Me: "he won't even like m.."

Cute guy: (giving me validation before I could even have doubts) being so nice and gentle and just overall cute )

I was on cloud nine I AM on cloud nine. I've been through so much with past toxic relationships and he just makes me so happy.  We are actually taking the time to get to know each other And I try my best to keep him happy. And also open up to him witch is hard and scary.

He gave me a chance over ANYBODY ELES there's a whole lot of more attractive guys than me out there. He let me be his FIRST ....kiss yea you were thinking nasty weren't you hahaha .

I'll never take him for granted or that decision he made to give me a chance and I show him every day the best that I can that he has not made a mistake with me and I'm going to be there for him no matter what even if he decides later on that he doesn't want a relationship with me I just want him to be happy because he has made me happy. Little do he know but he took me out of depression.... because of our connection.

So there he is a skinny petite light skin with hair I could pull on during... uhhhh watching Netflix ;)  but this connection was definitely nothing sexual and it's not just his looks that's got me hooked on him I really love his personality he's so amazing . He assures me that he will like me no matter what and that he wants to build our relationship up and "one day tell me he loves me and it be a hundred percent true" and I'm literally waiting for that day .

I truly just want to lay up with him all day and get to know everything about him and keep this connection this spark of something amazing and I'm scared but I can get used to this.

"When I'm with you my soulmate I can't feel the ground but I be feeling you deeply".

Even if I try to think of  different scenarios in my head in the future with anyone else I can't because I don't see myself with anyone else right now. (I don't want to) And I hope I'm not being corny I'm not trying to, this is just how I feel about connections & my special one .

I've kissed before but I've never had that spark before with anyone else that's when I could tell that I liked you and I can't wait to see you again and hug and kiss you more.