You Are The One
Chapter 18
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Namjoon Pov
"It's getting complicated than ever. I have feeling for Y/n. What kind of feelings are they?
I am not in love perhaps Mani is at that place. Besides this fact, I do get magnetized by Y/n. I do want to become hers, lay my head in her lap, kiss her on forehead and especially hug her and never let her go. At the same time I still want Mani to come back. Namjoon, you have gone crazy. Have a drink and sleep."
That night Namjoon drank 10 bottles of beer. (LOL)
TIME SKIP
"Y/n wake up, Professor is coming"
Swollen eyes, dizzy eyesight you raised your head. Professor Mizo was infuriated by such behavior.
"Students have you brought your homework."
Listening to this statement, your eyes widened. In panic you asked around what was the homework
"Yes Y/n where is your homework."
"Mam I forgot"
"Good as expected. Get out of the class."
You went out while murmuring "Fuck you life."
AFTER 1 WEEK
You were feeling very low. In a mood to kill anyone who dares to lay eyes on you. You crumbled down.
"I should talk to Emma. She will help me."
You dialed Emma. She didn't pick up. Instead you got a text from her.
"RN at Hobi house talk to you later."
Negative thoughts enveloped your mind. The person who is your childhood best friend is ignoring you for couple of months boyfriend.
"Maybe Jin is free." you thought to yourself
You texted Jin to meet up. Hours pass by he didn't reply which quite odd. You felt terrible as if someone stabbed you in the back. A loser detached from the world.
This was not only one day, it became a daily routine. Emma and Hobi ignored you. Jin replied with monosyllable yet he posted regularly on social media. Slowly and slowly you understood they used you. You didn't want to be around anyone. If someone tried to stat a conversation your reaction would be ruse and snappy.
You hoped a person to remain permanent in your life. When everyone showed their backs Namjoon was right beside you. he insisted on meeting on days you weren't feeling yourself.
"Bye Joon. It's dark now."
"Sure. Say hello to uncle and aunt."
Namjoon dropped himself on you leading to a hug. Your butterflies were flying up and down. In the flow of moment you pecked on his cheek.
AT NAMJOON'S HOUSE
"JIN I am hesitant to fall in love again." Namjoon pitched his voice high.
"Life has given you another chance. Forget Mani. You and Y/n have the same damn feelings. Ignoring the feelings won't be good in long run. Stop considering her as best friend. OPEN YOUR EYES YOU DUMB FUCK." Jin shouted back at him.
They were vibing on kitchen's floor at Namjoon's house. Of course with liquor loosening their emotions.
"How can I? I still have hopes for Mani. She will call me some day or other."
"You are provoking rapper inside me." Jin said in a serious tone.
"I am ready to hear what you have to say."
"You loved Mani for 4 years nevertheless she crushed it. Mercilessly. Not once cared about your feelings. Well she even doesn't take initiative to contact you. She is aware of the fact that you love her still she is chasing other boys. On top of that she never gave a shit about you. Why don't you understand motherfu...."
Namjoon clapped his hands. "I am so tired of this bullshit. One side my heart is cut and sliced by Mani. The pain drowns me deeper in a hole. My head hurts thinking about her. I was too open to lover her but it was joke for her. Other hand my heart feels safely warm with Y/n. I want her but I can't love her."
Namjoon chugged the rest liquor.
"I know I am sounding selfish. I know I hurt her."
"Oh really? Your mind is filled with garbage. Do you remember my girlfriend in high school was Mani's friend. She asked Mani about you."
Namjoon wiped his tears. Throwing the bottle aside "Speak out what the hell she said."
"She said or I should say taunted she doesn't want her life sticking to one person. What she wants her life is fun. There are better guys than you."
Namjoon froze. His heart was taken out of his chest and torn apart. As if volley of arrows shot into. He crumbled down and started to sob.
"Namjoon control. It's not your fault. Get hold of yourself. I am here for you."
Namjoon clutched him.
NEXT DAY
I woke up early ready to change. In night I decided what to do. Taking out workout outfit my attention got diverted on a box. I had no memories related it . In utter confusion I open it. It contained shirt which Mani gifted me. Finally the time has come to free myself.
Following workout, I deleted Mani's photos and broke the gifts. Consequently it gave peace. Most importantly I burnt the shirt.
"I will be no longer your dumbass doll.. Always showing my happy side covering my scars.I don;t want to see you . Neither hear your voice. A new side of me will be revealed."
I went to my part time job.
"I will discover myself more. The feeling I am ignoring I will pay more attention. I will give people love what they expect from me."
END OF NAMJOON POV
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