dear journal,
i've decided to write you a little letter/message telling you some details about myself, since you're now my new best friend.
first things first, my name is asia lilliana vasquez. i am currently nineteen years of age, and label myself as 'single'. i hate saying i'm bisexual, or pansexual, whatever. but i don't have a preference. if i'm attracted to someone, then so be it.
when it comes to 'my past', there's a lot of shit to talk about. i'll spare you the stupid little details. my dad left my mom and i when i was ten. and even though my mom doesn't think so, i was old enough to understand. see, my dad, he drinks a lot (at least that's what ten year old me would say). in adult speak, he's an alcoholic. i honestly can't really remember a time when he wasn't drunk or drinking. back to the facts, he left when i was ten. i don't know why he waited so long to leave, but what's done is done. him and my mother never really talked, at least not in front of me.
when i was seventeen, my mother and i were on our way to school when a drunk driver pulled out in front of us and swerved us into the lake. i made it. she didn't. my mother died from fluid to the lungs. someone dived into the water and pulled me out, but not my mom. my biggest wish is to be able to go back and make that person get my mother out instead of me. i'd thank them for saving my life, but it'd be a lie.
after the crash, my father became my next of kin, and so i was entitled to go live with him, in which we reconnected our relationship. i lived with him for four months before i couldn't take it anymore. i went and lived wih my aunt while i finished my senior year. after that, i moved to the next state over and made a living for myself. and here i am.
i enjoy music. i like to write music, and also sing. i play guitar but don't tell anyone that. my favorite things to do are watch netflix, cuddle, and sleep. some of my bad habits are smoking, drinking, unprotected sex, sex in general, getting high, and isolating myself. i'm not into relationships, or love. i find it stupid. i don't think anyone requires a significant other to do something with their lives. i believe in independece.
i think that's all i have to say. have fun reading my dumb bullshit.
sincerly yours,
asia.
