'She'

 Hey Guys, so I have not been the best. I feel like I have been falling apart.

 Falling into this hole that keeps getting deeper and deeper and deeper. 

I know this girl, and I miss her so fucking much, it's not even funny.

Nothing happened to her, she is completely fine, I just miss her so much.

And it is tearing me apart!

Please don't hurt me. 

I have done nothing wrong.

This is all from my heart.

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 I love her.

 I miss her.

 Nothing happened.

 She just makes me feel safe.

 Her hand in mine makes me smile.

Blush.

Giggle.

Her smile.

Her eyes.

Her hair.

The way she walks.

The way she talks.

The way she sings.

The way she touches me.

Not even thinking about how it gives me butterflies.

The way she hugs me.

Being shorter.

Her head resting on my chest when she is sad.

Straight.

She is straight.

Thinks nothing of it.

Thinks that this is what friends do.

My mind.

My mind is going crazy.

I have to shut out all thoughts of 'us' being more.

I so badly want to.

I want to kiss her.

I have had to fight it.

I hurt myself for it.

She is perfect.

She is gorgeous.

She is loving.

She is caring.

She knows how to help me feel better.

She is everything I need.

She is everything I want.

She is such an amazing role model.

Having so many siblings is rough.

But she is so good at it.

I want to make her happy.

I want her to be 'my' everything.

She is hurt.

She is bruised.

Emotionally.

She is detached from her mother.

She is in pain. 

She wraps her arms around me for comfort.

I love her.

I miss her.

Nothing happened.

She just makes me feel safe.

Please, can I hug you?

I don't know what I just typed but I know it's from my heart. It sounds cheesy but that's how I feel.