You and Tomura Shigaraki had started dating a few weeks ago. Nothing really came of it. If anything, Tomura actually avoided you at all costs. You didn't know why so you decided to confront Tomura about it with the help of Dabi, Toga, and of course Kuro(Mama)giri. Dabi and Toga kept Tomura distracted so he wouldn't notice Kurogiri warping you right next to him in his room. After Toga and Dabi saw you, they quickly left without saying anything and Dabi seared the door shut with his blue fire. Tomura hadn't yet noticed you so he started up one of his games, making sure to be careful with the controller and the game itself. You were a bit angry that he didn't notice you since you were right next to him but just shrugged it off for the moment and waited for him to notice you. A few hours pass and he's still playing his game but you found it cute how interested he was in it and how focused he was, so you weren't mad. He finally set down the controller carefully and looked over to your direction, jumping when he sees you and accidentally disentegrating his chip bag.
"Holy Fuck! Why are you here, Y/N?!"
"Why have you been avoiding me?" you asked, looking him straight in the eyes
"I have my reasons, ok? Just go away!"
"When you said you wanted this was it a lie?..." You mumbled, pointing to from him to you.
"No I..I want this I do.. I just..."
"If you want it then why don't you actually interact with me?.. Why don't you talk to me anymore or even look at me..? Did I do something wrong!?" You wondered, hoping he would tell you that you were wrong.
"I want it. I really do. I'm just-"
"Just what, Tomura?.." you cut him off, wanting to know the answer. Your mind coming up with all kinds of different things.
"I'm...scared.." He muttered.
You sat down beside him and he flinched.
"Scared?.." you wondered what it was he was scared of.
He nodded and said "Scared of hurting you... I've been avoiding you because I don't want you to disappear. I don't want to-..to lose you. You put some sort of spell on me Y/N... because you're the only person I've ever been so scared of..."
Tomura sat on his bed, making sure not to touch anything with his full hand
"I'm so scared Y/N. I don't want you to disappear...it's why I don't cuddle you why I don't even look at you because you're just so amazing that I can't keep my eyes off you. And you always said you'll hold my hand. But I won't let you. I won't let you get hurt by me. I'm a monster. I've done horrible things. I'm not gonna let you become one of my mistakes. Please just go...I can't risk hurting you."
"Tomura-"
"Leave. Y/N."
"Tomura I-"
"Just go!"
"No! Why won't you let me help you confront these fears?! Why didn't you tell me about them before you said yes to me!? Why didn't you-"
"I Don't Wanna Hurt You! If you won't leave, then I will."
He got up from his bed and went to the window, quickly disintegrating it and going up to the roof. You tried to chase after him but you couldn't see where he went. The door was seared shut so you were stuck. You knew Tomura couldn't stay out there forever so you just decided to lay in his bed which was surprisingly comfy. You couldn't help but take a nap.
Tomura came back in the room, thinking you'd already left and started to get in his bed. When he noticed you, he jumped back and off the bed, jumping up and making sure he didn't touch you at all, a breath of relief escaping him when he sees you still there.
"Y/N You're still here?!"
His words wake you up
"Yes. Please talk to me."
"No. Stop. Just. Go away! I.."
"you what?"
"I don't love you!" He didn't wanna say it. He didn't mean it. He just didn't know what else to say. Once he said it he regretted it. But all he did was turn away from you, not wanting to look you in the eyes after saying that.
You tried to leave without saying a word but the door was stuck, so you left out the window and sat on top of the roof. You sat and thought for awhile thinking well maybe he didn't mean it. Maybe he was just scared. Which you were right but the thoughts in the back of your head were louder. They kept saying that he really did hate you. That he could never love you. Getting louder. You tried to ignore them by putting on a playlist Tomura made for you but it just made you sadder. Eventually, Tomura came to the roof beside you and tried to act like he didn't say what he did.
"h-hey Player 2." he stuttered a bit with his words
"are you kidding me?" You asked, standing up and walking a bit away from him.
"I'm sorry Y/N! I got scared..."
"So you decided to say that of all things!? God why won't you just let me help you?! I love you Tomura! I really fucking do! Why can't you let me help you through your fears?"
"I... Sorry.." he shrunk in on himself again.
"Whatever. It doesn't even matter." You rolled your eyes and just kissed him without a second thought.
He was very surprised and was not ready for that but he just let you kiss him as he kissed back, wanting to hold you but being too scared of hurting you. You sat in his lap and kept kissing him, wanting to make things right but words didn't work for either of you. So this was the best thing to do. You pulled away and nearly fell off the roof so you wrapped your arms around Tomura's neck.
"whoa! Be careful player two!" He wrapped his arms around you but made sure his hands weren't touching you and pulled you as close as possible to him.
You smiled and looked into his eyes muttering a small 'I love you' which he replied to with a kiss.
You both stood up, happily together again when one of the shingles of the roof under your foot slipped. Causing you to slip. You tried to hold onto your boyfriend, but instead he reached to grab you, forgetting his quirk for a moment. The only thing on his mind being saving you. Well... That didn't end too well. As you know, his quirk is decay. On anything he touches with all 5 fingers. Well when he grabbed your hand and you started screaming in pain, he realized his mistake and tried to stop it. But it was too late. You were already decaying quickly. He jumped off the roof to try and maybe save most of you but he couldn't. He picked you up from the concrete ground with 4 of his fingers from each hand and held you, crying and screaming at the world. Screaming at himself. Screaming until he couldn't anymore. And until you weren't there anymore.
A/N
Ok so word count is 1264 words and ummm yeah I was feeling really angsty so have this. Sorry but uhhh yeah. I'm not very good at writing or anything so sorryyyy.
